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A review of Day 2 of the Oxford University Short Film Festival

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The Oxford University Short Film Festival took place at the end of last term in Keble O’Reilly Theatre. Each day featured a variety of well-crafted student films, and day two was no exception. Six student films were broadcasted, each reviewed below.

Skelter

The first film of the night, directed by Max Morgan, depicts a girl moving on from her summer job at a fairground and all the emotional disconnection and reorientation that entails. It’s set on her last day of work as she says goodbye to a close friend. The film mines a similar economical, hesitantly emotional vein as the films of Colm Bairéad and Charlotte Wells. Its storytelling is assuredly minimal, preferring to hesitate on shots of the environment and pitch its conversations in a place of naturalistic awkwardness.

This approach allows the film to ascend towards a moment of thematic unity as the protagonist descends the eponymous helter skelter for the last time. This scene, greatly enhanced by Aris Sabetai’s overwhelming score combined with the laconic and alienating images of the disassembly of the fairground, leads to a moment of poetic insight as we watch the pair of friends recoiling from and parodying their previous emotional closeness. Their performances affect this admirably, with a real attention to detail in the small expressions that complement the film’s minimalism.

On a more critical note, though the writing is for the most part subtle, it can feel a bit obvious. Stripping it back even further and leaning into the Hemingway-esque economy, even extending some of the environmental storytelling and slowing the pacing (as in the films of Béla Tarr) would accentuate what is a really interesting style.

Drift

The second film, directed by Emily Florence Batty, explores the nostalgic friendship between Lily and Rachel, separated after Lily leaves for university. The film is cut through with cold blue snapshots of their final moments together before they left off with an argument. The weight of their disconnect sits heavily on the film, and the non-linear storytelling allows these two emotional moments to pervade each other.

The film draws on the naturalistic dialogue and subject matter of Normal People, attempting to capture a newly digitized and fractured experience of youth. The cinematography and pacing are excellent, moving the relationship towards its eventual reconciliation. The film’s only limitations are in its writing; some of the scenarios feel clichéd, and the dialogue can be overly expository. However, this does not mar what is a skilful and focused relationship study.

Bright Young Things

The third film, directed by Katie Burge, centres on the relationship between Pia and Soph as they struggle to negotiate youth and morality. The film opens with a dreamlike sequence as Pia sparkles in a black void, fluttering around a star. We wake up on Pia’s 20th birthday as the two friends plan the party they will have that evening. Pia speaks in Waughian lyrics and half-finished ideas, relishing the confusion of her interlocutor. Soph is excited and happy, a lamb for Pia to lead, a dream for her to invent. When Pia kisses the boy that Soph likes at the party, the two fall out. Pia’s self-conscious charisma is imitated by Soph, who then undermines it and exposes its artificiality.

Soph emerges as the emotional core of the film amidst a world of sparkling appearances and inauthenticity. Meaning or morality is banished by a set of glimmering ideals, and youth is something illusory and performative. The film’s dialogue, while contrived at points, is spaced out to allow ambiguity to emerge. Defying any easy resolution, the film’s pessimism is itself unsure and seems to seek for some fragile humanity in its characters. It is a very effective short film, compelling in its dialogue and ambiguous in its conclusions.

It’s My Party

In the fourth film, directed by Rosie Robinson, Louisa’s two awful flatmates throw her a 22nd masked birthday party without inviting anyone that she knows. Through small hints dropped throughout the film we learn about the underlying emotional and familial struggles facing the character and their experience of chronic pain as the party descends into a distorted nightmare. It walks a thin line between comedy and horror, pushing into moments of Eyes Wide Shut-esque terror; we are drawn into the turmoil of the protagonist as the party becomes a wider symbol of an unknowable and overwhelming anxiety.

However, Lili Herbert’s fantastic performance always brings us back to humour with an incredulous facial expression. The main love interest’s conversational tone also follows this rhythm, toeing the line between awkwardness and emotional assurance. This sets a brilliant atmosphere, one that depicts the simultaneous comedy and total alienation of the scenario. The final scene is heartwarming, with great chemistry between the actors and a satisfying emotional resolution. My only critique would be that this ending loses the absurdist edge of the film’s opening.

Cloud Nine

The fifth film, directed by Theo Shorrocks, is a Richard Curtis inspired portrait of contrasting experiences of love. A real interview of an older couple is juxtaposed against the trials and tribulations of a pair of young would-be lovers. The use of the interview footage really elevates the film as their genuine and naturally complex dynamic sits on top of and shifts perceptions of the secondary storyline.

This contrast makes the young lovers seem one-dimensional, but in the same way that Richard Curtis’ characters are deliberately one-dimensional. As such, the film takes apart the Curtis formula, sitting in a place of tension that is at times genuinely heartwarming and at others self-aware of its own limitations. This stops it from synthesising in an emotional conclusion or reaching any final judgement on the theme of love (outside of its precarity), but this is also the film’s greatest strength, leading us into a nostalgic place of uncertainty where narratives of love and real love combine and are muddied. The film’s technical aspects are all excellent, with great pacing, editing, and cinematography.

Strangers

In the final film, directed by Mischa Gurevich, a chance encounter and an unexpected proposition explodes into a haze of dreamlike cinematography as the protagonists dance through an empty building at sunset. The voiceover ruminates on the impossibility of love and the contrast between the immediacy of their connection and the need for hesitation.

It is under half of the length of the other shorts, but it makes the most of its short runtime by disregarding character and relying on the ambiguity of its images. The film is more of an emotional rush than a cognitive experience, plunging between extremes emphasized by the granular sounds of glass and pulsing soundscapes.

Final Thoughts

The festival organisers did a great job setting up and chairing the evening, which ended with a panel with some of the directors. The films were interesting when taken as a set. They had quite a lot in common. Almost all were shot in 4:3. Almost all used a retro, nostalgic colour grade. Almost all, with notable exceptions, attempted a form of social realism. In most cases this was achieved through the use of minimal dialogue. As you would expect given the age range, most explored themes of fleeting youth, university life, or failing love. They were curated based on the theme of ‘interpersonal relationships’, which makes sense; most were interested more in exploring the relations between individuals rather than any wider social concerns. However, in this interpersonal isolation they were unified by their sense of nostalgia and hesitancy, which seems to reflect on a particular historical moment.

Hundreds protest Supreme Court trans ruling in Oxford

Several hundred protestors took to the streets of Oxford today in response to the Supreme Court’s recent ruling on the legal definition of a woman under the Equality Act 2010.

The march – which began at Bonn Square around 11.30am and ended at Oxford Crown Court just over an hour later – was organised by the group ‘Oxford for Trans Rights’. They told Cherwell that the protest aimed to “raise awareness of the harm caused by the Supreme Court’s ruling and the way transphobic individuals and organisations are using it to push their hateful propaganda”.

Following a number of speeches at the start of the route, the demonstration moved down New Inn Hall Street, before turning onto Cornmarket Street and continuing down St Aldate’s. Chants included “Supreme Court, blood on your hands” and “No borders, no nation, trans liberation”.

The protest comes after the Supreme Court ruled that under the Equality Act 2010, the terms ‘woman’ and sex’ refer to a “biological woman and biological sex”. Supporters of the judgement claim it will protect single-sex spaces, whilst critics have said it will undermine protections for trans people.

A diverse mix of people, some affiliated with Oxford University and others local residents, made up the crowd. One resident, who wished to remain anonymous, told Cherwell that he was attending the protest for his trans son, aged 14. He said his son wasn’t attending as he didn’t “think it was quite safe [for him]”.

Meanwhile, two academics in the modern languages faculty told Cherwell that they were “joining in solidarity with trans communities” by taking part in the protest. They carried a banner from the University and College Union (UCU) with the words: “Knowledge is power. Defend education.”

There was a minimal police presence, with only a very small disturbance occurring midway through the march when a bypasser on Cornmarket shouted at the protestors: “Misogynists go home. Defend women.” A large team of stewards and ‘legal observers’ from the organisers were present.

Some local political parties were also represented, including the Greens and the Liberal Democrats. Christopher Smowton, leader of the Oxford Liberal Democrats and Councillor for Headington, told Cherwell the local party had organised an “informal solidarity march” which the national party was happy to allow. No representatives from Labour or the Conservatives were visible at the protest.

By 1pm, the demonstration had largely dispersed after a few megaphone speeches which also addressed topics including racism and solidarity with Palestine.

A Trinity trail of Oxford’s best reads and retreats

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Trinity Term has come upon us faster than the lovely magnolia has blossomed, which means the weather has warmed up, the sun is out, and we’re finally moving into the summer (okay, scientifically spring) season! For those looking to read for fun, and not just their degree, below is a perfect Trinity trail of ideal reading spots in Oxford, with book recommendations to accompany every single one. 

First Spot – Vaults and Garden’s summer terrace

Every year, there’s a vicious fight to get these coveted terrace spots, and for good reason! The University Church provides shade, there’s a cool breeze, you can order delicious scones, and you get a view of the Rad Cam. Speaking of scones and afternoon gluttony…

Must-read: The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde 

If you still haven’t read Oscar Wilde’s greatest comedy, this is your perfect opportunity. This short masterpiece is filled with Wilde’s classic wit, and endless aphorisms. It’s a blend of false and mistaken identities, hastened marriages, frivolous engagements, served with lots of social commentary and drama. There’s also plenty of afternoon tea scenes. You won’t be able to tear yourself away, just like Algernon can’t stop with the muffins, so why not spend the whole afternoon over the play, all while having your own mini snack?

Second Spot – In Christ Church Meadows, under the shade of a tree

If you walk past the river bank where the boat house is, you will get to a bend where people rarely go, except if they’re walking the full circle. This means you’ll be largely undisturbed, and the grass makes for a soft sitting space. You can truly forget about the essay crisis and return back to your childhood memories of warm days of seemingly endless time.

Must-read: Mina’s Matchbox by Yoko Ogawa

To make that feeling even stronger, here’s a Japanese fiction recommendation that’s filled with whimsy, childlike carelessness, and the sense of almost limitless potential. After Tomoko is sent to live with her uncle in a coastal town, she finds herself in a fascinatingly mysterious mansion. Her cousin even rides a Pygmy hippo to school. Oh, and she’s a pyromaniac. Oh, and their house is, again, insanely cool… or maybe just insane. Need I say more?

Third Spot – Port Meadow amongst the horses

Snow White may have sung to animals, but you need not be a choir scholar to have your  Disney experience. You can simply read in Port Meadow, and the horses will at some point likely become curious. You might need to sit still though, so you need a book that will truly immerse you, and spark a state of careful, slow reflection.

Must read: Swann’s Way by Marcel Proust

Hear me out on this one: I know In Search of Lost Time is one of the longest books in the world, but reading a volume a year has become my obsession. Let me make it yours too. Proust writes beautifully – every page is filled with sentiment, emotion, and humanity. His writing is best described as incredibly floral, with the slow nostalgic tone and descriptions reminding me of waiting for the first flower to bloom just to examine every petal. This is a book for thinking and feeling deeply. 

Last but not least – By the Oxford canal

The Oxford canal town path is very long, so you are guaranteed to find a lovely seat. You’ll have the occasional barge glide by, the water will provide the necessary coolness, and although the place feels isolated, you can very easily head back to the city centre at any moment. This is also a darker reading spot, so the perfect place for when you’re looking to enjoy a more sombre novel. Or gaze melancholically at the water, despairing over unrequited love…

Must read: White Nights by Fyodor Dostoevsky 

The main character loves to go on walks by the riverbank (how apt for your situation!) and is a hopeless romantic who falls in love with a young woman yearning in turn for the chance to see her own lover once more. So hopefully not the exact same as your situation, then. He sees her as the sweetest, most perfect young girl, and he does everything he can to help her, and she in turn begins to love him as her closest friend. Could this turn into something more? Does it matter if it doesn’t? 

These are among a few perfect places to enjoy your book! Oxford is truly a literary city, where so many words and stories have begun, there can be no greater gift than reading here. Wandering the cobbled streets, enjoying the view of sun-kissed quads and the tantalising promise of the Bodleian libraries’ endlessly appealing shelves is so inspiring in getting you to pick up a novel, and finally hit that reading goal. Maybe Trinity will be the term to find your favourite read and retreat.

If walls could speak: Lessons from Cowley’s street art

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Just a five-minute stroll from the imposing spires of Magdalen College lies Cowley Road, the heart of Oxford’s urban culture. Oxford, renowned for its grand dining halls and neoclassical facades, is not a place where street art is the first thing that comes to mind. Yet, beyond the grandeur, Cowley Road transforms brick and concrete into a vibrant canvas – capturing the city’s community and vitality in bold, defiant strokes.

A striking example is the mural on Stockmore Street, just off Cowley Road, depicting Horns of Plenty (pictured above) – a community street band formed in East Oxford in 2007. Commissioned for their tenth anniversary and the Cowley Road Carnival in 2017, the piece was created with support from Oxford City Council.

This mural, created by renowned local street artist Andrew Manson (known as Mani) radiates the community’s energy. Its striking contrast of cool blues and fiery reds demands our attention, while its towering presence makes it impossible to miss.

The band dominates the composition, their large figures placed at the top centre, making up over half of the scene. On the top left, one member plays the saxophone while skateboarding, while on the far right, another drums, while crossing the road, adding a playful, lively energy to the scene.

Beneath the band, vibrant shops line the scene, with more musicians scattered throughout, playing saxophones and drums, their lively energy mirrors the booming sounds of Cowley Road’s Carnival. The overlapping figures and surroundings further emphasize the city’s bustling atmosphere during this time.

A closer look at this piece – now far from the vibrant freshness it once had – reveals peeling paint and signs of decay, a quiet reminder of life’s transience. Like the carnival it depicts, the artwork will fade away with time, surviving vividly in the memories of those who saw it. The exposed brick beneath grounds it in the city’s fabric, reinforcing its connection to urban life. 

Street art now contributes to Cowley Road’s vibrant energy, but it wasn’t always so revered. Originating from illegal graffiti, street art formerly faced widespread criticism. However, local artists like the Mes Crew (Must One and Seven) have collaborated with councils and the community to establish the Open Walls Network – legal spaces around Oxford, including tunnels and walls, for artists to showcase their work.

The Mes Crew has also created stunning works around Oxford, including the vibrant redesign of The Library pub on Cowley Road in summer 2024. This piece features a range of characters from books by renowned authors with ties to Oxfordshire.

On the bottom right you’ll find the Cheshire Cat with his mischievous grin, alongside Absolem, with his signature pipe, from Alice and Wonderland by Lewis Carrol, who studied mathematics at the University of Oxford.To the top right is the iconic Cat from Dr. Seuss’s The Cat in the Hat. Dr Seuss himself completed his postgraduate degree at Lincoln college, Oxford. 

Above the sign, the White rabbit from Alice and Wonderland appears alongside the Witch from C.S Lewis’ Chronicles of Narnia – Lewis himself an alumnus of Magdalen College, Oxford. At the bottom, a scene from J.R.R Tolkien’s The Lord of the Rings pays tribute to the renowned author, who was both an Oxford professor and a close friend of C.S Lewis. 

Another striking piece of street art in Cowley is a mural of the Radcliffe Camera, created by renowned street artist Reeves One in collaboration with the Oxford Street Art Collective. Painted during the 2017 Cowley Road Carnival, it can be found on Moberly Close, just off Cowley Road. The mural reimagines one of Oxford’s most iconic buildings in a bold contemporary style.

Set against a mysterious purple background, the Radcliffe Camera is rendered in vivid, unexpected colours – yellow-tinted windows and a turquoise dome – that reimagines its classical form with a bold, industrial aesthetic. The striking palette creates a powerful contrast between tradition and modernity.

The dome appears to hover, with machine-like elements emerging from both the top and base. These details suggest a fusion of past and present: the classical architecture merges with an industrial, futuristic vision, reflecting the changing nature of art and design.

This mural creates a visual dialogue between Oxford’s classical heritage and its dynamic street art scene, celebrating the coexistence of tradition and evolving creative culture.

Street art in Oxford is a powerful reflection of the city’s energy and culture. So next time you think of art in Oxford, don’t just picture the ornate ceiling of the Radcliffe Camera or the marble sculptures of the Ashmolean – consider the street art, created by and for the community. Unlike the permanence of Oxford’s historic buildings, its beauty lies in its ever-changing nature, a vibrant symbol of modernity. 

Staging the radio play: The audio-visual world of ‘Under Milk Wood’

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“Love the words!”

That was the crisp command from Dylan Thomas, the 20th-century Welsh poet, to the cast of his radio play Under Milk Wood, just before a rehearsal in New York in 1953. Not long after, Thomas was dead. His entreaty to “love the words” is a fitting legacy. Thomas was a writer enchanted by the sound and song of language. He infused his work with the Anglo-Welsh rhythms absorbed during his childhood in Swansea and among Welsh speakers – despite not knowing the language himself. It is this unique brand of poetry that sings throughout Under Milk Wood

Under Milk Wood is an idiosyncratic blend of verse, radio, and theatre of the mind. It captures a day in the ordinary life of the fictionalised Welsh village, Llareggub (spelling “bugger all” backwards), featuring an ensemble of eccentric characters. 

We hear the gossipy repartee of neighbours, the Reverend Eli Jenkins’ “greenleaved sermon on the innocence of men”, and the musings of Captain Cat, still haunted by the ghosts of companions drowned at sea; Thomas distills the “big seas of their dreams” and evokes a world in the mind’s eye.

The most famous and beloved version was the 1954 BBC radio broadcast, with Richard Burton as the First Voice (one of two narrators). It invites listeners to conjure their own version of the “lulled and dumbfound town” from the musicality of Thomas’ words and the sound design they are surrounded by. The radio version is intimate; the narrators entreat us to “look”, “listen”, and “come closer now”, assuming a new joyful urgency via their direct address.

The radio version is not bound by the logistical constraints of the stage. Yet the play has also been performed in theatres countless times, and even adapted into film. So in which form can we “love the words” best – radio, or the stage?

One of the most innovative stagings came in the National Theatre’s (NT) version in 2021, directed by Lyndsey Turner. It retains the hallucinatory quality of the original play, but uses the conceit of a care-home setting to establish a frame narrative around Under Milk Wood.

At the heart of Turner’s version is the casting of Michael Sheen in the role of Owain Jenkins, a character unique to this interpretation. He fulfils the roles of the narrators with a joyous spontaneity – as if he had just thought of his lines. Sheen is all wheeling limbs and breathless poetry. There is an effortless ease to his movement between the dream-like world of Under Milk Wood and that of the care-home, where he visits his father who has dementia. Sheen’s verse becomes an attempt to help his father recall the Llareggub of his youth.

Turner largely maintains the pace of Thomas’ roving narrators, the First and Second Voice. Yet these transitions are seamless in radio. In this sense, a staged version of Under Milk Wood may always be trying to chase after audio’s aural echoes.

Indeed, the NT’s austere set still requires an imaginative leap from the audience into the world of Llareggub. In a theatre among hundreds, though, there is a sense of community more absent from audio. You are less like a child lulled to sleep by bedtime tales, and are instead conscious of being one in a crowd, as if in one of the pubs Thomas frequented, over-hearing him mutter to himself while scribbling.

Perhaps audio remains the best medium for a conventional interpretation of Under Milk Wood that highlights its poetry – where “sound [is] as important as sense”, as Poetry Foundation says of Thomas’ work. For when the BBC released Under Milk Woods, a spiritual successor to the play in honour of its 70th anniversary, it was dramatised for the radio. In five short episodes, it captured the daily life of ordinary modern-day Welsh people in five different places. As in the play, you are transported into the characters’ world by the narrators to “hear their dreams”. The format of Under Milk Woods displays how the now-episodic nature of audio drama has begun to shape aural storytelling, even within the radio play tradition.

So in staging Under Milk Wood, which version is more successful? The rich baritone of Burton or the electrifying physicality of Sheen? Should stage try to imitate the radio, or play to its own visual strengths?

Future dramatists will continue to grapple with these concerns, against the backdrop of ever-increasingly popular audio forms. You’ll be able to see for yourself by watching Guy Masterson’s one-man rendition of Under Milk Wood, showing at the Oxford Playhouse this July. 

But come what may, the poetry of Dylan Thomas and Under Milk Wood will endure – for “death shall have no dominion” over his song.

Guy Masterson’s performance of Under Milk Wood will be at the Oxford Playhouse on 15th July.

‘The Little Clay Cart’ brings Sanskrit back to life

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As students left Oxford on the last weekend of Hilary, I visited St John’s College’s auditorium to witness the final hurrah of term: the biennial Sanskrit play. This year, the play of choice was Śūdraka’s Mṛcchakatika (The Little Clay Cart), directed by Ricardo Paccagnella and delivered entirely in Sanskrit, with surtitles translated by Professor Toby Hudson and Dominik Tůma. Both the Saturday and Sunday night performances were almost entirely sold-out, making the event a joyful reinvigoration of Sanskrit literature and legacy, bringing together long-time learners of Sanskrit and the completely uninitiated alike.

The play follows the folk tale, formalised in verse by Śūdraka, of the generous and impoverished brahmin Cārudattaḥ (Lucas Ali-Hassan), as he falls in love with the highly-respected, wealthy courtesan Vasantasenā (Althea Sovani). However, their romance is threatened by the king’s arrogant brother-in-law, Saṃsthānakaḥ (Riccardo Paccagnella), who pursues Vasantasenā despite her refusal of him, believing that if he can’t have her, no one should. 

Given that the original play would have been performed for at least six hours, Paccagnella and his crew did an impressive job of cutting down the runtime to just over two. Yet, what impressed me even more was that the actors were able to deliver all their lines over the course of 150 minutes with little falter, including the song-like classical rasas (‘poetic sentiments’, as explained by the brochure). The first strain of this metre, put to melody, was slightly jarring to hear – the only contemporary theatre we really see songs in is musicals, after all, and this play was far from that – but it didn’t take too long to attune. The cast wove deftly in and out of these refrains, with the script also interspersed with surprisingly comic moments. Particularly commendable in this respect were Paccagnella’s and Althea’s performances: their deliveries were effusive and evocative, clearly expressing the snide plotting of Saṃsthānakaḥ and the joyful wit of Vasantasenā. Not only did they bring their characters to life, but it was clear to me – despite my complete lack of Sanskrit knowledge – what part of the line they were delivering: A feat of acting, not just academics. 

This play and its characters were also surprising in just how familiar they were. Despite being written one and a half millennia ago, many of the elements of The Little Clay Cart are still highly recognisable to a modern audience: the scheming villain with unguarded ambition; the down-on-his-luck hero, noble to a fault; the plucky, irreverent best friend – known here as Maitreyaḥ (Vishal Rameshbabu). Its themes of jealousy, adoration, slighted masculinity, poverty, corruption – all these are timeless and endlessly explored. Even the comedy of errors that drives the main action of the plot seems to foreshadow Shakespeare by almost a thousand years; equally, the moments of pathos and genuine shock from the audience as Saṃsthānakaḥ seems to succeed in his goal, demonstrates its lasting resonance. 

Throughout the play, the ingenuity required of all student productions also came through in many ways. While on stage, the costumes were flawlessly executed – striped dhoti, transparent veils, and loose, looping fabrics, in the style of paintings found in the Ajanta caves, providing a distinctive look for each character – the behind-the-scenes of the costuming revealed a flurry of activity. The brochure for the play showed reams of fabric laid out in college JCRs and gardens, waiting for the stripes of paint to dry; as housemates with one of the costumers, Benjamin Atkinson, I was a first-hand witness to the time he spent on this project; from whittling spears for the guards to tie-dying fabric. The eponymous carts rattling familiarly across the stage were themselves the trundling trolleys used for transporting Merton College’s vacation storage. Knowing the secrets behind the aesthetics of the play didn’t ruin it by any means – in fact, it only made it all the more spectacular to see it come together. 

More than that, the play was also a bringing together of people. On entry, I noted that the audience was predominantly made up of relatively older attendees – townspeople, without direct affiliation to the University, who might have already come to see previous Sanskrit productions before. Various professors also made up the ensemble, alongside students: Seeing Professors Diwakar Acharya and Jonathan Katz play as the villainous Saṃsthānakaḥ’s lackeys was comic to say the least. In many ways, this untraditional ensemble reflects the ways in which the original 5th century script broke with convention: it featured various dialects spoken by common people, collectively known as Prakrits, and not just the Sanskrit of the elite; it told the stories of courtesans, thieves, and gamblers, not just the nobility; and it did not borrow from mythology, but from the lives of real people. 

It’s clear that a lot of heart went into The Little Clay Cart – the love that the entire ensemble had for the language shone through the whole production. It’s definitely worth keeping your eye out for the next time that one of these Sanskrit plays, just like a little clay cart, rolls around. 

Staying green in Oxford

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At home, things are quite simple: clearly labelled bins for various types of recycling, a reassuring food waste bin at hand in the kitchen, another bag for the various plastics that can’t be recycled from the house. With ample time to spare, it’s easy enough to go through the motions of checking the various labels on packages, washing and cleaning dutifully, and ensuring everything ends up where it should. Seeing the nicely-sorted plastics solemnly awaiting collection gives a certain peace of mind; the reassuring thought that one is doing one’s little bit in making the world a better place.

Not so in Oxford. Here everything goes out of the window (almost literally). Yet there are a few reasons – or maybe ‘self-justifications’ would be a more fitting term to use. First is the waste systems of my own college feeling as if they haven’t changed since the 20s: one recycling bin in the kitchen, another big black bin for everything else. Despite ongoing JCR efforts, the concept of a food bin is just as alien to St Hugh’s as the notion of a short walk. The cooking of every meal then ends with a period of moral pain – a momentary resistance followed by inevitable resignation to the inevitability of dumping the ends of peppers and carrots into the same container as its non-recyclable packaging.

And it’s not just the food. A good deal of plastics need to be taken to a larger facility for processing. But this transportation, simple enough when orchestrated by my parents, becomes mentally an insuperable task. It’s not even that there’s not enough time in between two essays, German classes, and various extra-curriculars, though of course that’s a part of it. It’s more than that the mental effort required after a full day of work means that temptation to just do the easy thing is practically irresistible. Add to that the (not insignificant) probability of a scout, through absolutely no fault of their own, mistaking the collected plastic for just another thing to be put in the bin.

There’s also the added dimension of the various social problems that invariably arise in shared kitchens. Mine, for instance, shared between enough people to mean the amount of free space is limited, makes carving out a good system for self-organising recycling a challenge. Further, with everyone else equally busy, there’s little social pressure to be environmentally disciplined – repeatedly seeing things dumped in a single bin reduces the sense of its wrongness. 

Bins are not the end of the environmental woes, though. Living on a frugal student budget moves consumer choices away from any considerations other than what is the cheapest. The homely delights of Ecover, plastic-free laundry detergent, and sustainable toiletries are replaced with whatever unfathomable compounds go into Tesco’s budget options. 

None of these are intended as excuses, of course. Writing them out makes even more explicit the weakness of the ‘reasons’, the laziness of the responses. So hopefully there’s ways to move forwards. Fighting college bureaucracy on dragging things into the 21st century is an arduous but necessary struggle. Starting term with effective and simple systems for organising waste disposal should persist throughout, if well-maintained. Foregoing another drink to spend that bit more on sustainable products is a worthy sacrifice. 

Lastly, the proper attitude for thinking about these issues is complex. Refusing responsibility for things which you can straightforwardly take care of is not acceptable. Pretending it’s not an issue, or that you can’t make things better, are damaging fictions. But equally, living up to conscientious ideals is not always easy, and constant dejection can quickly lead to nihilism. Better to try to do as much as possible, with an acceptance that it won’t be perfect. 

And of course, all of these issues can be seen as complete trivialities when put in the perspective of the global factors that drive climate change. Making consumption more sustainable is so far from being the be-all-and-end-all of climate action as to be almost absurd. Cutting down a single flight would likely do much more than a full three years of responsible behaviour. Reshaping socio-economic structures even more so. But disregarding your own behaviour allows apathy to creep in everywhere. Fixing the immediate problems is a start. Where we go next is another question.

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Finding the ‘I’ in Recovery

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CW: Depression, suicide, self-harm

My adolescence was swallowed up by a depression so severe that I did not expect to live past 18. I did not expect the pain to stop, nor did I expect to recover, and I certainly did not expect to be 20, writing this, feeling the most content I have been in my life. 

Depression is a cruel thief: it strips you of your sense of identity and reality, leaving only a numbing belief in the certainty of continual suffering. I held onto this conviction for years and spiralled into a dangerous cycle of self-destructive behaviour and thinking. Eventually, however, I asked for help after realising that I did not want to die, only for the misery to cease. What followed was a two-year process of receiving support from both professionals and loved ones. It was painfully challenging, tear-filled but, over time, waking up each morning did not feel like a tragedy and ordinary tasks became manageable. Three years on from starting recovery, I can confidently say that I am okay.

The more time passes, the harder it is to remember a time when I was not okay. Old diary entries and photos mostly spark confusion as I struggle to comprehend that girl’s suffering and recognise her story as mine. There is relief in this: the distancing in memories evidences an increased distance from the pain I once harboured. The fact that I can forget speaks to a contentment I never thought I would achieve; that I do not consciously carry the baggage of these experiences into every room I enter or conversation I have is an answered prayer. 

And yet, with this comes sadness. Forgetting is fine, unpainful. It is forgetting and then remembering that is a knife to the heart. The first crashing wave is the fear of my own ‘cruelty’, rooted in viewing the forgetting of my younger self as an act of abandonment and erasure. Then, the storm follows, which washes away any certainty of personal identity. I become unable to understand that my present and past selves are one another, both me, for how can I be okay now, having once been so unwell? How do I live normally, when I know what flesh sounds like when it is split then torn? There was great pain and confusion in feeling like I only became conscious at 19, all whilst knowing that that itself is a lie. 

Viewing my recovered self as a new person, like a phoenix rising from ashes, created this disconnect. However, self-reinvention is not the truth of recovery. You do not work towards successfully slipping into a different skin and leaving your ill self in the dust; instead, it is a process of recentering the self, becoming familiar with and accepting your contours and complexities. So, each day, I work hard to erase the harsh line I drew between myself as a child, a depressed patient and a recovered adult, realising that similarities exist across all three. Whether I was ten, 15 or 20, I have been fiercely stubborn, a lover of green tea and happiest by the sea. I always cry when watching films, wish I was a better painter and listen to The Beatles to relax. So many parts of myself did not change when I was ill; they were just hard to access and hold onto. Whilst my understanding of myself has changed, and I am now more confident, independent and emotionally self-attuned, this is ultimately a matter of renewal, not rebirth. I did not lose myself when I was depressed. I was simply lost. There is a difference. 

Whilst I will always struggle to comprehend the horror and paralysis depression causes, as well as never feel I accurately convey the brutality of such sadness and how I contained it, these experiences remain my own and shape my life quietly. Ultimately, getting better is not about erasing the past in the promise of the future; it is learning to say your name with a smile, knowing it has always been yours to say and will continue to be. That, I have come to realise, is the great gift recovery offers: the gift of a lifetime, of an ‘I’.

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You can call them on 01865 270 270, or chat at oxfordnightline.org. 

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Why are students so financially illiterate?

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Ask a typical Oxford student about their academic course, and they’ll happily ramble about the things they’ve learnt in great, riveting depth. Ask them instead about their intended career path, or how they plan to repay their student loan debt, and suddenly their response will be entirely unsure.

Young people have the lowest rates of financial literacy in the UK, and students are particularly imperilled by the £236 billion of outstanding student debt looming over graduates. Moreover, 35% of students who began their studies in 2023 are forecast to never fully repay their loans. Yet all too commonly I meet students who deem financial planning a secondary worry, something they’ll simply contemplate later. How on earth have we allowed such a disastrous attitude to spread unchecked?

As with most social phenomena, society’s upper echelons are far more responsible than they’d wish to admit. Few events in living memory embody ‘financial illiteracy’ quite like Liberation Day, wherein the US government raised tariffs to their highest effective rate in over 100 years. Aside from the following market crash and trade war, I recall being astounded by the government’s last-ditch attempt to justify their trade strategy: as economists swiftly noticed, the tariffs were entirely based on trade deficits, contradicting the narrative that these rates were reciprocal. In fact, I urge all readers to give the official methodology a read, as an exercise in sifting through substanceless, vaguely-economic gobbledegook. If this isn’t financial illiteracy at its worst, then God help us.

Domestic readers should keenly note that the future looks just as economically undisciplined within the UK. More than half of industry professionals have expressed no confidence in Chancellor of the Exchequer Rachel Reeves, due to her documented inability to navigate the nation’s economic landscape. Aside from her quantitative failures, recall that our Chancellor is someone who lied about how long she worked at the Bank of England, plagiarised her book from Wikipedia, and claimed to have worked as an ‘economist’ within Halifax despite serving instead as a complaint-handler. Suddenly this lack of confidence makes more and more sense.

This is the stark reality for current students: by the time you graduate, the economy will almost certainly be in the hands of people who blatantly mismanage public funds, with painful consistency. But this should not be surprising – those that sway economic policy most tend to be politicians who are trained to win votes, not manage fiscal rules. Who could possibly blame students for expressing a little financial apathy, when our leaders rampantly prioritise their image over our livelihoods? If we were governed by professionals with a little more monetary finesse, I strongly doubt that it would be so culturally acceptable to be clueless with regard to finances.

Apart from lousy actors within politics, Britain is particularly riddled by poor mathematical ability, with half of the working-age population having the numeric skills of a primary school child. Mathematical capability is strongly correlated with sensible financial behaviour, yet when Prime Minister Rishi Sunak briefed the nation with plans to teach mathematics to every student up to the age of 18, many rushed to ‘defend’ our youth, with fears that we’d be transforming an entire generation into soulless data analysts (which was neither correct, nor particularly frightening).

This country has a serious cultural problem with numeracy. An inability to think mathematically should be treated with the same care and urgency as an inability to read, rather than brushed off as a non-serious quirk. Again, I hold our political leaders largely accountable for normalising the trend: one third of politicians are unable to calculate averages, and half cannot grasp extremely basic probability (flipping coins, specifically).

The path to financial literacy will, sadly, remain an extra-curricular one. With this country’s bafflingly complex taxation system, it is clear that financially illiterate workers make the most gullible taxpayers; the same is naturally true for those who have not been provided with an adequate mathematical education. Speaking cynically, banks and governments are incentivised by higher levels of personal debt (by profit and economic growth respectively), so they benefit from mass financial illiteracy. If you wish to improve your financial knowledge, the blunt truth is that you cannot depend on your country to honestly educate you.

This should only encourage, not deter, your own pursuit of financial acumen: financial literacy is no unattainable mystery after all. In fact, it has never been more accessible: all Oxford students happen to have free subscriptions to the Financial Times and The Economist. It’s up to you, dear reader, to make the effort. By all means, feel free to continue spending idiotically like most students – I personally was fined £150 for littering a cigarette end while drafting this very article – but invest some effort in educating yourself. You will only thank yourself in the years to come.