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“A Gripping Memoir”: ‘Stay True’ by Hua Hsu Review

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Recently I picked up a book that had been on my to-read list for a while. Stay True by Hua Hsu came out last year to critical acclaim, winning this year’s Pulitzer prize for best memoir. I had heard good things about it and decided to take the plunge but could not have predicted the force with which this book would hit me. 

Hua Hsu is the son of Taiwanese immigrants, growing up at a time when the internet is emerging. The book primarily focuses on his experiences at college and during his early 20s. It explores his friendship with Ken, a Japanese American who he initially dislikes but grows to love. It is a book that explores almost every emotion imaginable. Through Hsu we experience happiness, loneliness, grief, anger, love and more, all within the span of less than 200 pages.

I think the reason why this book resonated with me so much is because I read it at the right time in my life. University, arguably especially at Oxford, is a time filled with instability and change, and it is often easy to feel lost in the whirlwind. In this whirlwind, it is also easy to question our own place in the world; where we fit in, or if we will ever fit in at all. Many of us take our youth for granted, and Stay True is a reminder that it can be ripped away from us at any moment. Throughout the first half of the book there is a sense of time running out, an unnerving feeling that proves to be well founded. At the same time, however, it is a reminder that the best way to stop ourselves from taking youth for granted is to live, and live well. 

At different points throughout the book Hsu sees the world through music. Music has an unrivalled power to spark emotion. It can bring us nostalgia, reminding us of years gone by or specific experiences. Sad songs make us blue, happy songs lift our moods. Songs mean things to us because of who it reminds us of, or because of where we were when we first listened to them. The artists who write our favourite songs influence our personalities, our senses of style, and who we choose to become friends with. I believe few things influence us more than the different forms of media we choose to consume, whether that be music, film, books, or others. 

No more is the changing power of music illustrated in the book than through the song “God Only Knows” by the Beach Boys:

“God only knows what I’d be without you
If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what I’d be without you” 

These are lyrics that we can experience so differently depending on where we are in life: who we are close to, who we are with, who we have lost, who we are yet to meet. When we are with those we love, this passage could show them how much we care and value them. If we lose those we love, it is a heart wrenching dismissal of the futility of life without that person. The upbeat major key of the song becomes almost irrelevant to the emotions we feel.

Of course there are also parts of this book I cannot directly relate to. Hsu was growing up as the son of immigrants, and faced certain racial prejudices that sometimes made him feel an outsider, Albert Camus would agree. However, it is through reading the experiences of others that we can empathise and understand each other. Reading the experiences of Hsu’s parents as well as the ways in which he himself felt like an outsider at times were, therefore, parts of the book where I felt I learnt the most. 

All in all, Stay True is a gripping memoir filled with a mix of well-known and obscure pop culture references, philosophical reading recommendations, and anecdotes of growing up in the early internet era. It reminds us of our mortality, and for us students, it is a reminder that things will not be as they are now forever. Time is relentless, and regardless of what we go through it continues its inevitable march. At the same time, there is a beauty in this. We should not be lost in the past because if we do we isolate ourselves and miss the continuation of our stories in the present. 

This is a book that I cannot recommend highly enough, and one that I myself will no doubt return to plunge in and out of in the coming months and years.

Can our individual habits solve the fast fashion problem?

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​​It is no mystery that fast fashion is a Bad Thing. I’ve spent a lot of time in recent years thinking about fast fashion, its not-so-nice impacts, and ways to circumnavigate it as someone interested in clothes. As a tween, paying a visit to Topshop or New Look on a shopping trip (remember when we used to do this?) made for a pretty unbeatable weekend. I’d trawl through racks of cheap polyester crop tops on  the sales racks trying to find the perfect look for non-uniform day because I naturally wouldn’t want to be seen in the same outfit as last time. The situation I find myself in now is a dramatically altered one. I pretty much avoid buying anything new: Topshop has been swapped for charity shops, and I scroll through Vinted like it’s the hottest new social media platform rather than spending hours on ASOS as religiously as before. For my own purposes, almost anything can be sourced second-hand, and almost always for a decent price. 

Almost. Therein lies the rub: sustainable shopping is not currently feasible for every person, nor for every part of the average wardrobe. Every now and then I have to buy new underwear, for example, and although I could fork out a bit more money to buy from a sustainable company, frankly, when it comes down to it, I’m lazy, and don’t invest enough  time into finding the best options. It’s significantly easier to just pop to M&S (I have aged well before my time) or even Primark, which takes the punches in a lot of fast fashion discussions when it’s certainly not the only culprit, and buy something for a low price. I’m actually interested in sustainable fashion, yet I am still very far from perfect in my practice of it – so, for someone for whom fashion is trivial, the choice will always be a no-brainer.

What’s more, my experience of sustainable clothes shopping is not the universal one. I’m pretty much bang-average-sized for a woman in this country so I can usually find a lot of pieces  that fit from second-hand sources. I’ve also been sewing since I was eleven, soI can pick up almost anything I vaguely like the look of in a charity shop and turn it into something wearable. For shoppers outside of the ‘average’ sizing range (if there is such a thing), sustainable fashion is a real feat given the limited breadth of sizes in second-hand stocks, whilst if you’re looking for something particularly specific, the sustainable choice is likely to be heaps more expensive than something grabbed off the shelf. For anyone who has attempted to source costumes for a production, beyond borrowing clothes from friends there is little to be done to avoid fuelling fast fashion in order to keep under budget.

More to the point: should any of this even be left up to us? In the face of ethical and environmental catastrophe, it often feels hopeless to take any responsibility ourselves at all because there are much bigger players determining the wreckage our earth is becoming, running industries that exploit the most vulnerable across the world for their own monstrous profit margins. Is the consumer to blame at all? Should we continue to shop as we wish until the fast fashion giants make some changes that lie out of our control?

From my point of view, this question cannot be answered straightforwardly. Allocating blame for the fast fashion industry purely to the consumer is clearly a misstep. But that doesn’t mean we are totally powerless. Particularly, when it comes to the task of climate action, every item not left in landfill, every item not left to rot in its packaging at the back of a wardrobe, every extra effort to find a second-hand alternative, makes a difference. As with everything related to being kinder to the earth, it isn’t about doing it perfectly – it’s about the whole lot of us giving it a go. And those of us for whom sustainable fashion is a feasible option sort of have no excuse not to at least try.

So, what can we do? It’s time to start sharing and swapping (check out the Oxford Facebook swap group if you haven’t already!), shopping in our own wardrobes and restyling old garments to make them feel new again, rather than grasping for the gratification of a new purchase (an understandable temptation), and typing in ‘Ebay’ or ‘Vinted’ as a reflex action instead of Urban Outfitters. Until the fast fashion industry slows down, our individual habits are all we have in our control. 

IDF spokesperson gives briefing to Oxford Israel Society

The Oxford Israel Society virtually hosted Lieutenant Colonel John Conricus and the Israeli Embassy on Thursday to provide Oxford students with a briefing and Q&A for the society’s first in-person event. This was a members-only access event, with information being delivered cautiously, taking into account security considerations. Members were told not to forward information about the event “without approval.”

Lt. Col. John Conricus is an International Spokesperson of the IDF, with over 20 years of military service. He has been responsible for IDF’s social media operations, public affairs, and public diplomacy. 

The event began with a briefing about the current hostile situation between Israel and Hamas in the Gaza Strip. The on-going conflict, which began earlier this month, has led to thousands of deaths on both sides. There have been numerous protests across the world, including two recent Pro-Palestine rallies in Oxford.

Oxford Israel Society told Cherwell that Lt. Col. Conricus stated that “Israel is going to tremendous efforts to strike military targets only”, and emphasised “the commitment of the military and the government to rescue the hostages and protect civilian lives.” The Israeli embassy continued the Q&A with discussion on casualty numbers, and their belief that what is often reported should not always be trusted.

Lt. Col. Conricus previously told CNN that Israel’s war with Hamas “will not be short.”

Oxford Israel Society told Cherwell that they “look forward to hosting more events, and giving a space and voice for students who wish to support Israel, and celebrate Israeli cultural and social life.”

The Palestine Society has been reached out to for comment.

A review of the Oxford Wine Company

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If you attended the Freshers’ Fair last week, you will almost certainly have heard of The Oxford Wine Company, and maybe even picked up a voucher or two. With 3 stores in the Oxford area (Turl Street, Botley and Little Clarendon Street), and a 10% student discount for Bod card holders, it’s certainly a go-to for anyone looking for something slightly classier than your usual supermarket bargains.

This offer becomes even more attractive for anyone looking to host an event, with further discounts offered for common rooms, societies and balls, and bespoke tastings offered on request. With a selection ranging from classic French and Italian drinks to more niche bottles from South America and Eastern Europe, and a thorough knowledge of each, The Oxford Wine Company truly has a wine for every occasion, so I was excited when given the opportunity to review a bottle.

After a year largely confined to the cheapest drinks I could find in Tesco, the sheer range of the selection on offer both in quantity and variety was incredibly appealing, in spite of the obvious jump in price. This is justifiable however, given the quality of both the wine and its proprietors. My visit to their Turl street branch was friendly and in spite of my rudimentary knowledge of the wines of the world, somewhat collaborative; my own preferences were poorly articulated I am sure, but taken seriously all the same. They were incredibly knowledgeable and picked out a wine to my tastes – Noir de Katz, a Pinot Noir from the Alsace region of France. Red, dry, though incredibly sweet this wine had notes of red fruits and honey which made its consumption an enjoyable experience both independently and with savoury accompaniments – I found even a simple charcuterie board from any local supermarket was much improved with a few glasses of Noir de Katz. Though not an attribute of the wine itself, the bottle is made more attractive by the very cute cat on both its label and cork, which stood out on the shelf in the store.

Knowledge of and education regarding wine, can often seem elitist. In some ways it is by its very nature- bottles can go for thousands of pounds to collectors whose knowledge is cultivated over a lifetime. Learning to differentiate each drink based on nuances subtle enough to appear invented to most, and regularly parodied. The Oxford Wine Company is above all accessible. Whilst they do carry some high ticket items, the majority of their products are very reasonably priced, and with the appropriate discounts, within a student’s price range for an occasional treat. The friendly attitude of the staff and the clear labelling of the store made the experience one which defied the norm, encouraging curiosity. I would certainly consider The Oxford Wine Company my first call for new discoveries and old favourites.

University College JCR push back against removal of night porters

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University College JCR had appealed to the College, expressing upset at the absence of night porters in the college. From the hours of 11pm to 7am the porters’ lodge is closed. The new nighttime system also has a financial burden to students with one use of the OUSS service when locked out of a room costing a student £25.    

On 15 March, the last night porter at University College stepped down, in the wake of the College’s decision to stop the night porters service. Instead, the College has enlisted the help of the OUSS who are contactable via phone number. There was a 24-hour presence in the Porters’ Lodge during freshers week which has ceased since, causing further upset among students. 

On 8 October the JCR unanimously passed a motion which officially recognised the gravity of the situation relating to the lodge. The motion also obliged the JCR president to convey the JCR’s concerns to college leadership (Head porters, Bursar, and College Master), requesting a formal statement and risk assessment. The former JCR president told Cherwell that until recently “there has been an almost complete lack of official communication from the college on this matter.”

Shermar Pryce, University College emeritus JCR President has told Cherwell that the student body has ”made ongoing efforts to address this situation with the college authorities”, to no avail. The JCR has set up an online form in which students can share their grievances with the College.

Particular concerns have been expressed regarding students who are unable to gain access to their rooms during the night. 

In the passed motion, the JCR noted that “the student body feels unsafe due to both historical and recent experiences of students who have been in this position, dating back to the initial loss of night porters over a year ago”.

Students who do not have access to phones – e.g. their phone may be locked inside their room – and so cannot call the OUSS are expected to walk to Queen’s College for assistance. This strategy presents difficulties for students who have also locked their bodcards in their room.

A spokesperson for University College told Cherwell that Junior Deans are available for support during the night. However, one student said they are not able to reach out to junior deans for assistance without the help of the lodge. 

Pryce added that “the junior deans’ email addresses are shared with students, their contact numbers are not provided on any college documentation or the intranet, which could be crucial in emergencies”. 

University College has affirmed that “the College remains committed to the safety and wellbeing of its students and staff”. The College told Cherwell: “All students have been emailed this week about overnight support at the College. 

“The College and JCR have agreed to work together to provide answers to any questions that students wish to raise on this matter.” 

In response to this statement, Pryce said that he is not aware of “any student at Univ which agrees with the presentation” of the situation.

“Emotionally and physically draining”: ‘A Little Life’ on West End

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Ivo Van Hove’s dramatization of Hanya Yanagihara’s divisive novel A Little Life took to the West End this summer, with a brief stint at The Harold Pinter theatre before moving to the Savoy Theatre. A divisive and controversial novel, A Little Life has been accused of being some form of torture porn, whilst others instead hail it as a profoundly impactful portrait of the vestiges of physical, psychological, and sexual abuse. As I took my seat this June in the Harold Pinter Theatre, I was intrigued to see how the arduously lengthy novel (720 pages no less) would find itself transformed into a 3-hour 40-minute production. The dynamic staging, starting initially as the shoddy apartment of Jude and Willem in Manhattan’s Lispenard Street, saw itself transformed into; a doctor’s office, the home of Jude’s adoptive father Harold, and the basement of one of Jude’s abusers – the sadistic Dr. Traylor. A string quartet huanted the background, providing dissonant, screeching strings emphasising any moments leading up to the graphic acts of self-harm. This was performed with convincing wince-inducing skill by the play’s star James Norton, and a contrasting soft, low humming during reprieves in this tension. Interestingly, a portion of the play’s audience was seated upon the stage, facing down towards those in the main stalls. 

My initial impression of the play, upon reflection, stirred this nagging doubt in my mind that I would detest it: it launches into action, the delicate development, and revelations of Jude’s past discarded, replaced by a dizzying plot that jumps into different moments in time without warning. This dramatic attempt to streamline the plot is understandable, but somewhat disappointing. The quasi father-son relationship between Jude and Harold lacked any real development, and the characters of Malcolm and JB were relegated to perfunctory roles and further served as a lacklustre part of our protagonist Jude’s life, with no real depth of connection. For me, the novel’s strongest moment of emotional impact is when JB, struggling with addiction and on the verge of a paranoid breakdown, lashes out at Jude by stumbling across the room, imitating his limp, and contorting his face into a terrifying imitative grin, when he suffers one of his frequent bouts of back pain, due to an attack by Dr Traylor in his past. In this moment, the safety of Jude and JB’s relationship fractures entirely, leaving Jude, and readers alike, reeling from this rare moment of Jude being forced to acknowledge his physical disability from an outside perspective. Jude and JB’s falling out cleaves open and carves out a sinewy, painfully visceral representation of the more nuanced consequences of the manifestation of childhood traumas. More simply, it is painful because of the betrayal of a man Jude chose to let in because he thought he was finally safe. Yet this was not as an impactful a moment when set on stage. 

The emotional grey shades painted by Yanagihara herself in the novel were stripped back and made entirely black and white. The physical manifestation of the oxymoronic parts of Jude’s own mind (angel and devil, id and superego, hope and despair, whatever does it for you), were found in his social worker Ana, and Brother Luke, played by Eliot Cowan. The nuance of the relationships between Jude and his friends is what could be seen as making Yanagihara’s novel justifiable by the glimmers of hope and joy that are found within the adult life Jude makes for himself, but I found the play provided a more monolithic depiction of trauma. The play’s narrative concludes in a death that felt much less surprising than it did when first reading the novel, and upon reaching this ending I felt myself considering the plot as a retrospective justification of the inevitability of his suicide. The novel, however, gave more space for the reader to hope for the characters. It gave them the ability to watch Jude’s yearnings for happiness and security, thrash it out with the cold, hard, unshakable influences of his past. Jude’s ascension at the end of the play secures his position as a martyr. His blood saturated shirt further symbolising the fact he finally reached his capacity for tragedy. 

At the end of the play, I felt emotionally and physically drained, bereft, and stunned by the visceral and gory portrayal of Jude’s suffering. As Yanagihara once said about the novel, the play also has ‘everything turned up a little too high’, it is a sensorily impactful play, with its staging, sound and acting creating an overall oppressive sense of futility and hopelessness. Some would argue that it is superfluous and artificial, but it could also be said that the play succeeds in capturing the essence of the novel whilst delivering it in a didactic and impactful way. Overall, Norton dazzles in his emotional range, managing to capture the naivety of an infant, to the wizened wisdom and anguish of a man who has known many things, but who is suffering first and foremost. Eliot Cowan stunned in a tricky role, portraying each of the abusers in Jude’s life, done with such skill that it rendered him entirely unrecognisable whenever he re-entered the stage as a new character. Theatrical catharsis was undoubtedly achieved, and the harrowed, politely quiet tone amongst the theatre goers as we all shuffled out of our seats went to show how far it resonated, or at least shocked. 

Manele: the controversy around Romani music in Romania

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Manele is a modern form of Romani (or Roma) music in Romania. Using traditional Romani instruments and sounds, it also fuses other genres from the Balkans, Middle East, and India.

Manele’s rhythm and sound may be addictive for many, yet despite a general consensus in Romania that manele is catchy and nice to dance to, it remains very controversial. This is partly due to deep-rooted prejudice towards the Romani people, as well as manele’s lyrics and music videos, many of which are full of cars, money, and semi-naked women.

Tzanca Uraganu (Tzanca the Hurricane), sings his major hit single Bat la Șase Buci (I Slap Six Bumcheeks) in Silver Club, the only Romanian nightclub in London. Entry costs sixty pounds (cash only), but people are ready to spend much more, giving Tzanca up to hundreds in sterling for dedicații: special song requests, dedications and shoutouts. Prior to arriving, my Romanian girlfriend’s parents tell me to put all our valuables into a fanny pack and tightly strap it to my chest. They also make sure my girlfriend does not wear anything too ‘revealing’: “They think lots of criminals and dodgy people will be there. It’s because of the music, but also partly because of racism. A really, really normalised racism. Almost everyone in Romania thinks that stealing is part of the Roma culture,” my girlfriend tells me.

The BBC made a documentary 7 years ago about the manele controversy. In it, it linked a few figures of the Romanian underworld to manele singers as ‘acquaintances’ who had helped advance their careers. There might indeed be some truth in the idea that manele as a genre attracts a few criminals, but it is also loved by many ordinary Romanians, especially the younger generation. At the club, everyone takes turns to come to the front to see Tzanca, people smile and dance, and despite the slight stress of my girlfriend’s parents’ warnings, I feel safe and happy.

“It’s nice music, and I don’t have a problem with it,” a Romanian friend tells me. “I like its sound. It’s similar to folk music and it appeals to the music I’ve been raised to enjoy. No one seems to complain about trap or rap music, but when it comes to manele there’s always a fuss. When I had a manele phase I didn’t tell my parents or anyone, because there is such a big stigma. Many people think that if you listen to manele, you’re either a ‘gypsy’ or uneducated. And even those who say they don’t listen to it actually do when they’re drunk enough, because at that moment for them it’s acceptable.”

For some, manele’s constantly recurring clichés of cars, money, love and women, as well as its strange lyrics that often don’t make sense, make the genre more funny than offensive. In ‘Manele in Romania’, the only book that can be found online about manele, Victor Alexandre Stochiță points to the idea that what differentiates those who like the genre and those who don’t is the extent to which its lyrics are taken seriously.

Tzanca and his backup singers sing perfectly in tune despite the noise of the music and people shouting requests in their ears. His entourage of musicians playing the clarinet, violin, piano and drums also prove their skill and stamina, performing perfectly non-stop throughout the night. To be a singer or musician in manele, you clearly need talent and practice. Yet despite this, on a language course in Bucharest this summer, our class teacher refused to acknowledge that being a manelist (manele singer) is a career. “It’s not a career because they don’t study anything for it”, she told us affirmatively. This seemed ironic as a few seconds later, she acknowledged that being a shop assistant was a career despite not needing to study for it either. It therefore seems that manele singers and musicians are looked down on by many intellectuals in Romania. Both class prejudice and racism towards the Roma people without a doubt play some part in this.

As the manele controversy continues in Romania, it also continues to be a very popular genre of music among the youth with a growing international reach. The recent appearance of Florin Salam, regarded by many as the godfather of modern manele, on one of Romania’s most popular interview shows, 40 de Întrebări (40 Questions), suggests that the genre is becoming more and more mainstream. In recent years, there have also been increasingly frequent collaborations between manele singers and more conventional Romanian pop artists, albeit with some critique from the latter’s fans. It remains to be seen whether manele will go on to be fully embraced as part of Romania’s unique musical culture.

“Five Lost Dads’ Descent into Nihilism”: Strike Force Five Review

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With the 2023 Writers Guild of America strike now officially over, it’s time to say goodbye to the brief, joyful and surprisingly nihilistic podcast Strike Force Five. Initially proposed by the host of The Late Show with Stephen Colbert, America’s five biggest talk show hosts, namely Jimmy Fallon, Jimmy Kimmel, Seth Meyers, John Oliver and Stephen Colbert came together to record and raise money for their striking writing staff.

148 days of striking later, a deal was finally made. Following concerns around streaming service payments and the development of AI, the agreement has been hailed largely a success. Whilst there are still more details to come from the deal, the WGA described the contract as “exceptional — with meaningful gains and protections for writers in every sector of the membership”. So, with the strike now over and the air jubilant, how should we reflect on a podcast that only existed because of threats posed to the entertainment industry?

The first thing to note about the Strike Force Five podcast is that it is completely odd. There’s something unnatural about five TV hosts trying to talk to each other – at each other – unsure of when to talk and when to listen. The first episode, aptly titled ‘Five Late Night Hosts Talk at the Same Time for the First Time’, captures the chaos that comes from a podcast where nobody is quite sure who is host and who is guest. “I think you’re really gonna feel [the writers’] absence while you listen,” Myers says. There’s little doubt he is correct.

The hosts, usually so confident in their late-night slots, appear lost without their writers to guide them. Their wildly unstructured conversations range from American classic Moby Dick to Nicaraguan dictator Anastasio Somoza Debayle (the latter may have been on a date with Colbert’s mother; the former is still to be read in full by Fallon). If nothing else, their meandering conversations resemble five dads catching up after a run-in at the local store. Sure, they happen to be some of the biggest names in American TV entertainment, but as you hear them discuss fishing, first dates and the pros and cons of eating in bed, all the grandeur of their professions quickly disappears. These are dads being dads in podcast form.

The best episode undoubtedly is the hilarious ‘Strike Force Wives,’ which sees Jimmy Fallon asking the wives of the hosts questions in an increasingly convoluted and nonsensical manner. Yoda-like comments are thrown around as the hosts, through tears, try to understand how to play Fallon’s game. It’s the sort of podcast that will make you cover your mouth in embarrassment as you chuckle walking down the street. “I need segment producers so bad and writers,” Fallon gasps through giggles, “I miss everybody so bad.”

Not all episodes, however, have the same breezy tone. Episode seven, with ex-Daily Show host John Stewart as guest, proves remarkably nihilistic. When asked how he’s coped following giving up the Daily Show, Stewart responds “it’s important to remember [that] when you leave what we do, you disappear.” Commenting on the ephemeral nature of satirical comedy, and the fact that viewers are unlikely to re-watch jokes made about the 2016 Iowa caucus, Stewart advises the hosts to get a hobby following their late show retirements. To put it more bleakly (as Stewart does): “Find God, I’m telling you, you’re worthless and insignificant.” It’s a fantastic commentary on the fickleness and fragility of fame.

 Another ex-TV host Conan O’Brien made a similar claim in 2019. “In this culture?” he responds, when asked about his legacy, “[In] two years, it’s going to be, ‘Who’s Conan?’ . . . Eventually, all our graves go unattended”. “None of it matters” is his simple takeaway. Is this the fate all ex-talk show hosts face? Perhaps Stewart’s comments were provoked by the dreariness of the writers’ strike but it’s telling that podcasting, an industry which O’Brien also dominates, has proved a common thread in these nihilistic reflections.

Is being “reduced” to what could be considered a new-age radio part of the impetus behind the feeling that “none of it matters”? Just a few years ago, the idea of a talk show host doing a podcast was laughable but now podcasting is a multi-billion dollar industry whilst the viewership of late-night TV is swiftly dwindling. This is a strange, if still highly lucrative, time to be a talk show host and it must have been baffling for the five hosts to succumb to such a new (and potentially threatening medium) in Strike Force Five. This, if anything, makes the podcast all the more fascinating to listen to.

So, is Strike Force Five worth a listen? Absolutely. Go for the playful laughs, behind-the-scenes anecdotes and intriguing set-up. Stay for the gentle reminder that nothing (specifically, a TV legacy) really matters.

A walk down Magpie Lane on one winter night

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Wandering nightly through the cobbled pavements of the city of dreaming spires,
I could not help but notice the darkening shade of sandstone under the yellowing hue of orange lampshade.
The sandstone walls that saw the greatest wars and the greatest minds
flourish, and vanish without a single trace,

Except for written words, tireless recreation,
A distant dream in the milky fog of one’s own false recollections,
Of what is written on those sepia walls in dusty libraries,
A personal Alexandria of the romantic mind.

Those dark amber walls, who have eyes,
Remember better than the greatest scholar, preserving the legacy
Of elfin spirits of men, just like you and me,
Aspirations and visions of grandeur; lived or unreached.

Those ghostly wails of the past still remain,
Resounding through the rooms of poets and politicians-
Becoming accustomed to these hallowed walls, just like you and me,
Wilde and Wordsworth, Shelley and Graves,

Their thoughts and words echo through empty streets,
Greeting me from windows and doorways, lit up cafes and dingy side-street pubs,
An omnipresence worthy of gods- these lecture halls, their shrines.
A dream to live by; a breathable mythology of those like you and me.

And I, and you too, may perhaps be one of those souls,
Spending endless wintery nights wandering that stone,
A future ghost, of a glorious past, echoing through those rooms at last.

Analysis

Adrian Kuba’s poem ‘A walk down Magpie Lane on one winter night’ is set within the stream of consciousness of a fresher walking down Magpie Lane in Oxford at night. This character is starry eyed: filled with passion and potential they cannot yet express. Adrian writes in a purposefully rambling and disorientating style to reflect the experience of leaving home and starting your life proper in such an odd place. Adrian himself came from Liverpool to Oxford, a big change which left him equally excited and confused.

A consistent theme in this poem is the immortality of art. ‘Wilde and Wordsworth, Shelley and Graves’ have made their mark upon this historic town and survive through the ‘shrines’ of ‘lecture halls’. They have become ‘Gods’ in a metaphorical sense through their shrines, but in a literal sense too. They are immortalised in the University- in the ‘darkening shade of sandstone’, the ‘sepia walls in dusty libraries’, and in in ‘amber walls’.

Adrian is a Classics student, and he reflects on a historical tenant that he believes to stretch back all the way to Homer- that is, the notion that great deeds- often in real life, artistic ones- are a form of immortality, which results from the long-term remembrance that the artist is often endowed with. He mentions that Achilles’ great decision of long life in obscurity, versus death shrouded in fame, although comparatively more dramatic, reflects this human desire for great deeds and remembrance. For the Homeric hero, the outlet for this was war; for those writing such stories, it’s the art

How can one, even immortal, survive as their true self? This is the question Adrian asks the reader to ponder in the line on ‘false recollections’. In the ‘milky fog’ of history, can we know anyone, or only how they wish to be perceived? Can our own identities survive unchanged, even if we rise to the status of Gods?

In Adrian’s first encounter with Oxford, he was struck by the solidity and liminality of it. Solid in the sense that it has withstood the tides of time, and liminal in the sense that Oxford is a place where the past and the present uniquely intermingle to create an atmosphere of electricity and potential. ‘Magpie Lane’ is one of the oldest streets in Oxford, one which artists and authors before him have walked, and will continue to do so in the future. Adrian attests that in Oxford ‘you can feel the history in every brick’. His protagonist starts the poem walking down the lane in life and ends walking down the poem in death. It is exciting to think we are walking alongside the metaphorical ghosts of the past, and that we may become them in the future.

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Distress among applicants as admission tests mix-up papers

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Oxford’s first day of admission testing has led to distress amongst applicants. The paper for  the English Literature Assessment Test (ELAT) was reportedly from the previous year and technical errors led to delays, provoking outrage on X, formerly known as Twitter. 

Last year, Oxford announced that they would no longer use Cambridge Admissions Assessment Testing for their testing, which is set to be discontinued in 2024. While the TSA and BMAT will still be administered by CAAT for this year, the majority of admissions tests are now being conducted by Tata Consultancy Services (TCS) in an online format. 

HSFC Reach & Early Apps, a sixth-form affiliated X account, called for a formal apology, writing: “We look forward to a written apology and statement about the progress of these tests today. Not only with technical errors, but also the error on the ELAT. Students have prepared for these for months, so rapid response is necessary to assure them they will not be disadvantaged.” 

A picture of a broadcast message that appeared on the screen was also posted on X, which read: “We would like to inform you that we are experiencing slowness in accessing the tests. We request you to wait for a few mins and we will let you know when things are back to normal. We assure you that students will not loose [sic] any test time.” 

One person said that they had “over 90 minutes [delay] plus ongoing glitches followed by issuance of a paper version of the MAT after two hours.”

Further criticisms were made over the lack of communication channels, with one X user writing: “It was a total shambles this morning. Students stressed out due to the Oxford server crashing out. No phone number to call. No updates on the website. This should not have happened!”

The University has been approached for comment.