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In Conversation with Judy Kuhn

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Reading reviews from Judy Kuhn’s shows, I notice a common theme: she is rarely mentioned in much depth. Critics briefly praise her talent and move on. There’s an expectation in the theatre community that Kuhn will deliver a flawless performance. When she does, it’s really not much of a surprise. And so, with her enduring star quality, it’s no wonder she’s managed to leave critics and fans utterly unsurprised for over thirty years.

Watching Kuhn perform is a masterclass in range. She belongs to a small minority of singers who excel at both the crystal-clear soprano and the soul-stirring belt. Aside from her rigorous technique, there’s her dependable professionalism, her formidable stage presence and her ability to construct three-dimensional characters with the capacity to move even the most emotionally repressed theatre-goer to tears. Any theatre fan will agree: there’s Broadway, and then there’s Judy Kuhn.

The first thing I notice about Kuhn during our call is her sense of humour. She bursts into laughter when I refer to her as ‘Broadway’s Secret Weapon.’ “I have no idea what that means!” she tells me.  After spending hours listening to her sing of longing, betrayal and wasted youth, it’s a refreshing change.

Arriving in New York as a fresh-faced ingenue in the early 80s, Kuhn quickly garnered recognition for her roles in The Mystery of Edwin Drood (1985), Rags (1986) and Les Misérables (1987), for which she received a Tony nomination for her performance as Cosette.  Cosette is a notoriously difficult role to get right, her admittedly spectacular soprano often paling in comparison to the gutsy belts of Fantine or Éponine. In a musical where almost every character is (loudly) suffering, her unsinkable optimism can rub some people the wrong way. Yet critics and fans agree that Kuhn brought something else to the role, demonstrating a real awareness of the trauma and abuse Cosette suffered in childhood. She offers a realistic and profoundly moving performance of a role which often gets overlooked.

“People usually hate Cosette?!” Kuhn says in disbelief, “I really like Cosette. I see her as this incredibly strong, feisty, ambitious risk-taker. She’s willing to break the rules…she wants what she wants. I see her as a young woman who has been caged, who suddenly wakes up one day and goes, ‘why am I in this cage? I don’t want to be in a cage’, which is a very human thing. Young people, when they start to see the world through more adult eyes, when they start having desires and ambitions, if they’re subjected to an overprotective parent, they’re going to rebel.”

She speaks fondly of the show, recalling a matinee performance after the opening night of the out-of-town tryout in Washington DC. “Everyone had had a little too much fun the night before,” she tells me, sparing any detail too salacious. She describes technical malfunctions as the show’s iconic revolving stage broke down and the performance was cancelled midway through, and the relief she felt when a bleary-eyed cast were allowed to go home and recover .“I’m passed the stage of doing much partying,” she tells me.

“Opening nights are fun,” she says wistfully, “they’re less fun now because it used to be that you didn’t know what the reviews were until the next day. Now, of course, reviews are up online before the curtain comes down on opening night…You can tell from the mood at the party whether they’re good or not.”

One bad review was the New York Times’ for the short-lived Rags, which closed after four performances. Critic Frank Rich, dubbed ‘The Butcher of Broadway’ by the British press, is ruthless, finding fault with the show’s lead, opera singer Teresa Stratas, (“as small as life from curtain-rise to finale”), Stephen Schwartz’s lyrics, (“they can be heard coming a clunky beat or two away”), the supporting cast, (“competent and predictable”) and Gene Saks’ direction, which failed to give the show “drive or cohesion”. With the notable exception of Kuhn, who “transcends the general level,” no one is left unscathed by Rich’s needlessly vitriolic take-down.

“You have to take reviewers with a grain of salt,” Kuhn tells me, “it’s one person’s opinion about something and some make the reviews more about themselves than they do about the work. Some appreciate the work that went into making something, whether it’s a success or not, and some don’t.”

But what about the truly awful productions? Should they be spared?

 “I think unless something is sloppy or offensive, one should appreciate how hard it is to create something. What do you get out of being unkind?”

After steady work both on and off-Broadway, Kuhn’s career took a new turn when she was cast as the singing voice of Pocahontas for the 1995 animated film, cementing her status as a pop culture icon.

The film is not without its fair share of controversies, accused of depicting a sanitised portrayal of a turbulent time in American history and promoting problematic tropes of Native Americans. Though Kuhn comes to the film’s defence, claiming that “it wasn’t a historical document. It wasn’t pretending to be history.”

“Russell Means, the actor who played Pocahontas’ father, who is Native American himself, thought Disney did an amazing job about understanding the culture. I’m sure today people would have objections about the fact that I sang those songs, but they actually tried to cast a Native American to sing them,” she tells me, “And they didn’t find someone that they liked. So I got to do it.”

I ask her about the legacy of the film, in particular its environmental anthem Colors of the Wind. The lyrics, written by Stephen Schwartz, take inspiration from a letter sent by Chief Seattle to the United States Congress. “It was basically about understanding our relationship to our environment and to the people who were here before the Europeans came,” Kuhn tells me. For her, the song “is a message for kids about how people from different cultures have to appreciate each other and an environmental statement about our relationship to the land.”

Pocahontas remains her most renowned role. “It’s certainly more enduring than anything I’ve done on the stage,” she tells me, “that’s here and gone.”

Not always. I admit to her that I watched an illegal bootleg of Fun Home, a musical she did back in 2015. Having seen the West End cast in the show, I was curious to see how their Broadway counterparts had fared. Outing myself as a perpetrator of one of the most heinous crimes a theatre-lover can commit, I ask Kuhn how she feels about bootlegs.

“It’s complicated,” she concedes, “there was an effort right before we closed [to film the production], but unfortunately the effort to raise the money and get it filmed started too late so we never got to do it. So in some ways, with a bootleg, at least there’s some record out there of that production, but on the other hand it’s probably not very well filmed if it was done illegally and nobody gets paid for the copyrighted material… I don’t know.”

We discuss her involvement in Fun Home, Lisa Kron and Jeanine Tesori’s award-winning musical, based on Alison Bechdel’s graphic novel of the same name. The musical traces Alison’s attempt to come to terms with her sexuality and her tumultuous relationship with her father, Bruce.  

“Caption. My dad and I both grew up in the same, small Pennsylvania town. And he was gay, and I was gay. And he killed himself. And I… became a lesbian cartoonist,” Alison announces at the start of the show.

Kuhn plays Helen Bechdel, Alison’s mother, a quiet presence in the piece until her 11 o’clock ballad, Days and Days, in which she laments the wasted years she spent married to a man who couldn’t love her the way he was supposed to. Kuhn is phenomenal in the role, delivering an exceptionally moving performance of a woman desperately trying, and failing, to hold her marriage together. 

Kuhn was involved with the project from its inception. In initial drafts, however, there were only glimmers of Helen, Days and Days having not yet been written. It wasn’t until the show’s first presentation at the Public Theatre (Fun Home’s off-Broadway venue), that Kuhn actually received the song. She recalls the moment Tesori sat down to play the opening chords:

“It was perfect. There’s no other way to say it. Musically and lyrically, it was exactly what Helen needed to say at that moment. Jeanine [Tesori] understands the emotional content of a chord. She plays a chord and you burst into tears. It just touches that place that wants to be touched. And Lisa [Kron] wrote the way those characters think, the rhythm of their thoughts. Combine that with Jeanine’s music…it was just right.”

Her transformation into the reserved Bechdel matriarch is impressive, her physicality as though copied straight from the pages of Alison’s memoir. It was an eery likeness, one remarked upon by the Beech Creek residents, the Bechdel family’s neighbours, who praised the verisimilitude of Kuhn’s performance.  

Kuhn speaks at length about Helen’s relationship with Bruce: “They shared so much. She didn’t understand where it was going to go. There was so much grief. Helen gave up everything for Bruce. That’s part of her anger.” In an earlier scene that portrays Bruce attempting to seduce a former pupil, we see Helen playing the piano, aware of her husband’s indiscretion in the next room. She pauses her étude, weighing up whether or not to confront Bruce. In a defeated voice, she resolves “maybe not right now.” “She gave up all her dreams and ambitions for that marriage,” Kuhn says.

But she does believe they “deeply loved each other”, citing Helen’s choice to be buried with Bruce, forty years after his suicide, despite having found a new partner. “He was her soulmate, her forever husband,” she tells me.

In a recent concert with friend and colleague, Seth Rudetsky, Kuhn sang another song from the musical, though not one originally performed by her character. Ring of Keys is sung by Small Alison, depicting her reaction to seeing a butch lesbian for the first time. She’s fascinated by this woman. It stirs something within her; not a sexual awakening- something more potent – a self-recognition. She doesn’t have the language to verbalise what she feels so, instead, she focuses on what she can see – the woman’s lace-up boots, her dungarees, her ring of keys.

“I try to find the innocence of an eight-year-old,” she explains, “when you’re that age and something new happens to you that opens up something in you, but you don’t even know what it is yet. I look for how, as an adult, we can experience that same thing.”

There’s something about Kuhn’s voice. It impresses itself onto you. Even in in the triumphant Just Around the Riverbend or the romantic A Heart Full of Love, there’s an ache, the happiest moments marred by traces of sorrow. It’s why I find myself more convinced by her later roles, those of Helen, Golde and Fantine. She deftly expresses the longing and frustration that lurks beneath their quiet dignity. I find her recent performance of Nobody’s Side, a song she originally performed in the Broadway production of Chess. Listening to her 1988 rendition is impressive, but her return to the song is something else. The technique is still there, of course, but there’s an added weight to the sound, as though given texture by her thirty years of life experience. Her voice has only improved with age.

Though Kuhn acknowledges the challenge of getting older in “a business that is not kind to women.”

“The business changes, but you change too, and therefore how you’re cast changes,” she tells me, “you’re constantly having to show casting directors ‘this is who I am now.’”

“But here’s the thing about being an older women,” she begins, “the roles are more interesting. People get more complex as they get older. And you have more life experience to bring to the role.” She mentions her involvement in the upcoming revival of Stephen Sondheim and John Weidman’s Assassins, in which she is set to play Sara Jane Moore, a suburban housewife who attempted to kill Gerald Ford. A “crazy, comic, frumpy role,” it’s worlds away from the ingenues she played at the start of her career. “It’s fun,” she says, “and a little scary.”

“I’m a much happier and more confident person than I was when I was your age,” she tells me, “but as they say…youth is wasted on the young.”

She flips the conversation to me, probing me about my future, my ambitions, my plans. I offer up some half-baked suggestion, nothing particularly concrete or realistic.  

“God, to be 20…” she says.

“God, to be Judy Kuhn,” I reply.

Union ex-Treasurer speaks out after resignation

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The Oxford Union’s Treasurer Kesaia Toganivalu has resigned her post in protest against the decision to invite Dr Debra Soh to speak at the Union.

She told Cherwell: “My resignation means nothing. It means nothing at all. This term, the election will roll back around and the same committee members who knew of the illegal gathering or were in attendance themselves, will ask for your votes. I was out of the running a good while ago, but in spite of the scandals, I stayed on as a matter of pride and out of a belief I could do better work from within. I was wrong, and I refuse to be part of it anymore. Eventually you have to put your own happiness first.”

The Union responded to Kesaia Toganivalu’s opinion that an “illegal gathering” took place, describing this as “falsely claimed” and “incorrect” information.

In an email to the President of the Union, she said that it had “not been an easy decision to make” but that she could not continue in her position “in good faith”.

She went on to ask: “Why is it that when a speaker whose views so strongly affected the LGBTQIA community was invited, the Oxford Union’s LGBTQIA officer was not consulted? You can believe in free speech and still believe in showing compassion to a minority group, of which some of our members belong to.

“The Oxford Union is a society of the University of Oxford, and we should have worked harder to work with our fellow students rather than in spite of them.”

Debra Soh is scheduled to give her talk at the Union on the 19th February. She has been criticised for stating that there “is definitely a correlation between autism and gender dysphoria” as “for some people with autism they fixate on things, go through periods of being really into one thing – gender could be one of those”.

Her invitation has sparked a backlash from the Oxford Student Union’s Disability Campaign, with her comments said to be “using autism as a vague talking point to dismiss trans rights”. Meanwhile, Oxford SU LGBTQ+ Campaign said that she was “hardly qualified to comment on these issues and her positions are unequivocally transphobic.”

Toganivalu was previously the Secretary of the Union. After the previous Treasurer’s resignation, she was appointed Treasurer.

The former Treasurer’s resignation email also referenced a controversy which engulfed the Union earlier in the term regarding an alleged gathering in contravention of coronavirus legislation, asking “why is it that a leadership meeting was held about the invitation of Graham Linehan, but not the fall out of that illegal gathering? Why did no member of committee, who gave personal testimony to me that there was a party come forward and bring it to the attention of committee? I have often felt like a joke on this committee, with the way everyone has treated the party like an open-secret, and as though I am just a joke for wanting us to be better.

“This term has seen the Oxford Union plagued with scandal after scandal, and I feel I can no longer do any good as an Officer of this Committee”.

Kesaia Toganivalu was part of the CREATE slate which was elected to all the major positions within the Union. Their proposals included improvement to access and reduced membership fees.

James Price, President of the Oxford Union for the term Hilary 2021 told Cherwell: “I want to thank the Treasurer for her efforts this term, and wish her well in her future endeavours. A constructive meeting of the Union’s access committee today discussed the invitation of Dr Soh at length, and ended parsimoniously, with the agreement that the Committee would work on a task force to extensively prepare me for the interview. I’m very proud of the Committee for showing its’ [sic] ability to disagree well.”

Image Credit: Barker Evans.

22/01/21, 20:04 – The article was edited to include a comment from James Price and the Union.

BREAKING: University releases new guidance for exams and the upcoming term

In an email sent to all students today, the Pro-Vice-Chancellor (Education), Martin Williams, confirmed that “formal teaching is very likely to remain online for most students, unless there is a significant change in Government policy”, describing this as a “difficult decision.”

He also noted that “some students on a small number of additional courses will be invited to return in time for University in-person practical teaching to begin in Week 5 of Hilary term, where this is vital for them to complete the year”. These students should expect to hear from their departments early next week.

New provisions have also been confirmed for students taking exams this year. The University stated that they would not be introducing a blanket ‘no detriment’ policy, in line with the Russell Group’s previous statement. Williams echoed the Russell Group’s statement in his email, saying that a “formulaic policy for all students is not the right approach, and that a more considered and tailored solution is required.”

For finalists, the University will instead be introducing a rescaling policy across courses, comparing cohort achievement to marks in pre-pandemic years and scaling where necessary. The University will also be implementing an enhanced Mitigating Circumstances process, similar to last year’s, allowing students to set out the disruption they have experienced during the pandemic without a need for independent medical evidence. 

Williams stated that the University “will also offer improved support and guidance for both students and examiners, to ensure MCEs are handled with empathy and consistency,” and encouraged students to keep a record of any disruption they face so that it can be considered during the MCE process. 

Provisions have also been put in place for those with coursework deadlines. Students will now be able to submit an explanatory statement with their coursework if they feel they have been impacted by lack of access to resources, which will be considered at the marking stage rather than after marking by the exam board. 

This comes after the SU launched their ‘Fair Outcomes for Students’ campaign, pushing for further action from the university to aid final year students. The SU called for a safety net policy, including rescaling and possible re-weighting of marks, alongside an enhanced mitigating circumstances policy. The Russell Group University newspapers recently published a joint editorial calling for a safety net policy, and urging Russell Group Universities “to act compassionately and responsibly.”

Regarding a return to university later in the year, Williams stated that:  “At this stage, we anticipate that we will be able to welcome students back to Oxford in Trinity term.” The University is currently working on options for “teaching and wider student life,” such as whether catch-up in-person work will be required for small numbers of students. An update will be provided by the University around the middle of term. 

Williams also noted that “the libraries are working to maximise the range of resources and support available to everyone through these means.” For students currently in Oxford, the Old Bodleian will be offering access to study spaces, and Williams anticipates that opening hours and spaces will be expanded as the term progresses. Staff at the Bodleian previously spoke to Cherwell, claiming that keeping reading rooms open is not “safe or sustainable.” 

Review: Playboi Carti’s ‘Whole Lotta Red’

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The most interesting thing about Playboi Carti is that despite the immense attention and hype he draws, he remains a relative mystery. Past projects have revealed little about the rapper, and the two and a half years since his debut album Die Lit have perplexed fans who filled the wait with countless leaked tracks and low-quality 15-second snippets that gave only glimpses into the rapper’s developing style. None of this, however, could prepare listeners for the direction Carti would take on his latest release. 

Whole Lotta Red is Carti’s most confident album to date, with a cover proudly embracing the “rockstar” persona he has tentatively crafted for himself in past releases. Whole Lotta Red is not the culmination of the artist’s signature trap sound that many fans were hoping for, but instead the most significant evolution the rapper has ever undertaken. Rather than rely entirely on his tried and tested sound defined by euphoric beats and playful adlibs, Carti continues his trend of breaking new ground in the rap genre, pioneering an abrasive and unapologetically cut-throat sound that gives his latest project an intoxicating and manic energy that never lets off.


The opening track ‘Rockstar Made’ immediately sets the tone for the rest of the album and Carti dominates the track with his raspy and abrasive voice. Whereas previous albums saw the artist at his best when his delivery blended seamlessly with the addicting beats, his delivery on Whole Lotta Red raises the beats’ intensity, with track after track coming at the listener with force, leaving barely an opportunity for them to catch their breath. Lyricism has never been a point of praise for the rapper, with him taking the concept of “mumble rap” to new heights by barely even speaking a discernible word of English at times; a masterstroke in further blending his delivery with his beats. Carti is refreshingly clear and articulate on Whole Lotta Red, his aggressive lyrics serving to further feed into the album’s manic and intense vibe. Yet, he does not exclusively drive the album’s intensity with abrasive delivery. ‘Teen X’ is a standout track that sees Carti utilise his signature “baby voice” to complement the high-pitched beat. Rather than call back to the euphoric highs of Die Lit, the result of this delivery is a fierce, drug-fuelled anthem that resonates in the listener’s ears: “I’m on the X, I’m on the codeine”.

That is not to say that the rapper never breaks up the relentless pacing by calling back to the types of tracks that made him so popular in his last two projects, his eponymous mixtape Playboi Carti and debut album Die Lit, and in his leaked music. In fact, Carti drastically switches up the vibe at several points. ‘New N3on’, ‘Control’ and ‘Punk Monk’ depart significantly from the manic energy of the album’s first half, featuring exhilarating vocal performances and beats that characterise much of the latter half of the album. Tracks like ‘Sky’ and ‘ILoveUIHateU’ would fit perfectly among Die Lit’s symphony of syrupy beats, whereas ‘Over’ and ‘Place’ recall the chill vibe that made the rapper’s leaks and snippets such viral sensations over the past year (‘Place’ was, in fact, leaked). These would normally risk harming the overall cohesiveness of this predominantly aggressive album, but the album’s arrangement results in the tracks serving as a much-needed shift away from the first half’s intensity. They prime listeners for three of the most introspective tracks Carti has ever released, making a tribute to his brother on ‘Die4Guy’, reminiscing on his personal growth in ‘Not PLaying’ and reflecting on his mental health in ‘F33l Lik3 Dyin’.

Much of Carti’s appeal has always laid in the quality of his albums’ production, and ‘Whole Lotta Red’ is no different in this regard. He thrived on Pi’erre Bourne’s minimalistic and vibrant beats on Playboi Carti and Die Lit, but the frequent collaborator is notably less present on Whole Lotta Red, only producing tracks ‘Place’ and ‘ILoveUIHateU’, leaving way for a dizzying line-up of producers. The result is some of the most exciting and ground-breaking production in the hip hop genre. From the thumping beats influenced by punk rock in ‘Stop Breathing’ and ‘New Tank’, to the more pop-influenced beats on ‘Slay3r’ and ‘King Vamp’, to the vampire-themed remix of Bach’s ‘Toccata and Fugue in D Minor’ on ‘Vamp Anthem’, Carti demonstrates an impressive ability to jump onto any type of beat, which should dispel the notion that he derives his success purely from the work of his producers.

Nonetheless, much of the album’s production, though unique, gives the impression that the project was rushed and highlights several low points. Mixing is messy on ‘Go2DaMoon’, baffling composition choices were made on ‘Place’ (a five-second-long pause that I still struggle to fully come to terms with) and ‘JumpOutTheHouse’ sees Carti at his most repetitive and uninteresting, neither attempting to blend his delivery with the beat nor drive the track’s intensity. Low points on the album are, however, few and far between and do little to break up what is ultimately a very cohesive and relentlessly exciting listen.


If Playboi Carti and Die Lit were electrifying and euphoric escapes, Whole Lotta Red is an intense journey from start to end, accentuated by blissful highs, chilled vibes and introspection. The album is a breath of fresh air in a genre dominated by generic trap beats and phoned-in vocals that try to emulate Carti’s restrained minimalism from past projects. The record sees the rapper at his most assured, unafraid to push the boundaries of the genre and experiment with sounds that are certain to alienate a large proportion of his fanbase. To doubt the success of his latest project would be to forget the pushback he received on past projects, criticised as mindless, repetitive and uninspired works. Whole Lotta Red is undoubtedly Playboi Carti’s most polarising album to date, but fans and sceptics of this new sound alike should expect it to strongly influence the hip hop genre for the foreseeable future.

Image Credit: Wikimedia Commons

Hallucinogenic healing

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Recent years have seen a surge of research into the effectiveness of psychedelic drugs in treating mental illnesses such as depression, anxiety and PTSD when assisting psychotherapy. Since 2010, a number of studies have shown the potential of MDMA-assisted psychotherapy in treating PTSD. They have observed that MDMA-assisted psychotherapy consisting of two or three doses of MDMA provides long-lasting treatment – with patients being in PTSD remission for up to six years – with no side-effects. This year the FDA is set to approve MDMA-assisted psychotherapy, with similar prognostics for the UK, Netherlands, Germany and the Czech Republic. Surprisingly, a study comparing the use of MDMA and SSRI medication (currently the most common drugs for treating a plethora of mental health issues) in the treatment of PTSD found that patients treated with MDMA-assisted psychotherapy reported fewer side-effects due to the small number of administrations of the drug, and that the drop-out rate of MDMA-treated subjects was considerably less than in comparable SSRI trials. They also found that the issue of patient compliance is not present in MDMA-assisted psychotherapy because the medication is administered only a few times and under clinical supervision, while SSRIs rely on the patient independently taking the drug daily.

Likewise, it has been demonstrated that, while there is a lot more research needed , LSD-associated psychotherapy can provide significant and long-lasting benefits to patients suffering from anxiety associated with a life-threatening disease. Participants in this study experienced ‘insightful, cathartic and interpersonal experiences, accompanied by a reduction in anxiety (77.8%) and a rise in quality of life (66.7%)’.

The medical use of other psychedelic drugs has been increasingly researched, with DMT-assisted psychotherapy having been approved to be trialled as a treatment for depression in the UK as recently as 2020.

Ketamine, although not a psychedelic, has also enjoyed considerable amounts of research in the past years due to its antidepressant properties.

PRICING AND COST

Among the above-mentioned drugs, ketamine has a unique legal status, as it is officially licensed as an anaesthetic/analgesic, which makes researching and using it for medical purposes comparatively easier. It is currently available on the NHS for the treatment of severe depression that has not responded to 2-3 other treatments. It’s pricey, though, with the initial assessment and standard treatment of three infusions costing a patient in Oxford £365, followed by £195 per subsequent infusion. One could possibly expect similarly high prices once psychedelic-assisted psychotherapy becomes available. However, while these prices might seem high, some scientists argue that the use of psychedelics can drastically cut medical costs by generating a shift in psychiatry from the current palliative approach towards a curative one. Dr Ben Sessa makes the bold claim that ‘with psychedelics, we can take a person in their 20s or 30s with a history of severe childhood abuse and a severe mental disorder like PTSD, and we can completely cure them and send them on their way’. A recent study speculated that ‘for 1,000 individuals, MAP [MDMA-assisted psychotherapy] generates discounted net savings of $103.2 million over 30 years […], compared to continued standard of care’.

That being said, there are other, less enthusiastic voices than Dr Sessa’s, especially when it comes to ketamine-assisted treatments. In early 2020 The National Institute for Health and Care Excellence (NICE) decided that, despite the need for new ways of treating drug-resistant depression in adults, there is not enough evidence of the long-term effects of treatments with nasal esketamine spray (a form of ketamine) to justify its use by the NHS due to the high costs per course of therapy (of £10,000). Moreover, both ketamine and esketamine have ‘potential neurocognitive and urologic toxicity’ and require close clinical monitoring prior to, during and after treatment.

HISTORY OF RESEARCH AND LEGISLATION

So if psychedelics and ketamine-assisted psychotherapy treatments have the potential to be both more medically effective and (depending on whom you ask) more financially desirable than what we currently have, why have they largely been neglected by psychiatrists over the past few decades? Psychedelics are neither addictive nor medically unsafe. Surprisingly, the scientific community has been aware of psychedelics’ potential as mental health drugs ever since the first decades of their discovery; during the 1950s and early 1960s, their therapeutic potential in treating alcoholism was advanced by a number of respected scientists. That being said, there are very few studies into the subject between the early 1970s and the twent-first century.

The answer to the question seems to lie neither in the medical nor the academic fields, but in politics and social stigma. Psychedelics first gained their negative reputation following the Harvard Psilocybin Project scandal, which received national press coverage in America. The press focused on the leading researcher, Timothy Leary, whose studies had poorly controlled conditions and non-random selections of subjects, and who promoted the recreational use of the drugs among his students and purportedly pressured some of them into taking psychedelics. At the same time, the association between psychedelics (especially LSD) and the counterculture of the 1960s further encouraged legislators and the public to view those drugs with distrust. While modern laws prohibiting the use of certain drugs have been around since the late nineteenth century, the current obsession with the prohibition of recreational drugs, particularly those prevalent in marginalised communities, has its roots in President Nixon’s ‘War on Drugs’, which he began in the early 1970s. The questionable reasons for Nixon’s actions are well-known nowadays; years later, his rationale was best expressed by John Ehrlichman, his own Assistant for Domestic Affairs:

The Nixon campaign in 1968, and the Nixon White House after that, had two enemies: the antiwar left and black people. You understand what I’m saying? We knew we couldn’t make it illegal to be either against the war or black, but by getting the public to associate the hippies with marijuana and blacks with heroin, and then criminalizing both heavily, we could disrupt those communities. We could arrest their leaders, raid their homes, break up their meetings, and vilify them night after night on the evening news. Did we know we were lying about the drugs? Of course we did.

In addition to the effects it has had in perpetuating racial inequality in the US justice system, the ‘War on Drugs’ continues to cost the US government an incredible amount of money and resources (over $7.8 billion a year). There have been clear social and economic disadvantages to the heavy criminalisation of recreational drugs, especially when compared with the efforts made to decriminalise drugs in Portugal. This is not to mention the fact that it shifts the focus of political discourse and diverts public attention from more effective social policies. Most importantly is that the War on Drugs, which is not only limited to the US, has been impeding psychopharmaceutical research into psychedelics and ketamine for decades, in spite of having little logical basis for existing in the first place. Professor David Nutt expresses this best in an interview with Metro, where he argued that the illegality of synthetic psychedelics ‘has caused about a million excess deaths a year, due to the failures of being able to access medication’, with the War on Drugs having set back research into the medical use of psychedelics by at least 50 years.

SLOW PROCESS

When it comes to researching psychedelic and ketamine-assisted psychotherapy, there are a number of impediments that will be encountered. Louise Morgan discusses the presentation of MDMA-assisted psychotherapy in peer-reviewed studies and publications such as The Independent and The Guardian. She argues that misreporting on recent research by the media could ‘potentially lead people to believe that MDMA will “cure” them of psychological trauma‘. She wants to make it clear that, in all studies on the benefits of using MDMA on treating mental health disorders, ‘it is the psychotherapy that is the treatment and that the MDMA facilitates the psychotherapy’. The misleading reporting she mentions risks tarnishing the reputation of this all-important field of research and creating unrealistic expectations.. As Morgan puts it, ‘MDMA may provide a bridge to effectively overcome the gap between psychotherapy and psychopharmacology’. By misreporting, the media risks generating a stigma in a field that is already heavily censored. The illegal status of the drugs being studied is making the research exceedingly difficult for academics everywhere. If someone wants to undergo research into MDMA-assisted psychotherapy in the UK, they must go through a complicated and costly process. Because the substance is a Schedule I drug in the United Nations Convention on Psychotropic Substances of 1971, researchers, along with all production sites and distributors, must obtain a Home Office licence, which Morgan observes is a very lengthy and pricey affair involving repeated police inspections and criminal record checks.

Whether one takes the enthusiastic approach of Dr Sessa or Morgan’s more cautious one, it is clear that the use of psychedelics and ketamine in psychotherapy is a promising field of research and holds a lot of hope for the world of psychiatric treatment. One conclusion that should most definitely not be taken away from this article is that those struggling with mental health issues should take matters into their own hands and attempt to self-medicate. Apart from the fact that one can never be sure of the purity (and thus safety) of what is on the street, the substances in all of the studies mentioned above were taken under close clinical supervision, in controlled microdoses and in conjunction with psychotherapy. This field of research is still in its infancy, and there may be some time before such therapies become widely available and affordable, but it just might be worth the wait, given the promising results obtained thus far. Only time can tell.

Artwork by Charlotte Bunney.

Hair today, gone tomorrow

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Everyone’s hair plays an integral role in their identity and how they are perceived by the world. We change up our hair like we change our style of clothing every once in a while, to express our personalities and the stage of life we’re at. Girls are typically associated with having a drastic hair change when they go through a break-up: she moves on from her old hair in the same way she moves on from her ex. Particularly during our teenage years, we experiment with new hair colours and styles as we explore who we are. But how much does our hair define our identity and influence the preconceptions people have about us?

Blonde, brunette, black, ginger. Each hair colour has different connotations and characteristics attributed to them throughout history or due to popular culture, playing a huge part in how a woman sees herself and how she is perceived by others. I’m sure we’ve all heard blonde jokes or can think of ‘dumb-blonde’ movie characters. One of the most blatant Hollywood characters that springs to mind is Poppy Moore from Wild Child. As a blonde, she is reckless, rude and shallow-minded. As soon as she has her hair dyed brown, she somehow instantaneously becomes a different person. Another character whose hair plays an integral role in her identity is Elle Woods from Legally Blonde. When her boyfriend breaks up with her, she asks him if it’s because she’s “too blonde?”. Elle later discovers that he’s engaged to a sensible, high-status, soon-to-be-lawyer who, you guessed it, just happens to be a brunette! Elle grows to become a successful law school student, in spite of being a blonde female. Why should the colour of someone’s hair be a determining factor in their capabilities?

One of my favourite childhood books was Anne of Green Gables, in which the main character is portrayed as a fiery, short-tempered, and daring girl. She is regularly reprimanded and told she is “wicked” on account of her red hair. “You’d find it easier to be bad than good”, Anne claims, “if you had red hair.” It’s not just Anne though, redhead characters in books and films are regularly portrayed in a similar way: Hetty Feather, Merida, Annie. How can the colour of someone’s hair determine their personality traits? It’s not just popular culture though. In various times and cultures, ginger hair has been prized, feared and ridiculed. Between the 16th and 18th centuries, many people believed that redheads were affiliated with witchcraft, many of whom were drowned or burned at stake in an attempt to cleanse society of witches.

I’ve been asking myself how much hair colour plays a part in my identity. Over the past years, my hair has been through a (rather concerning!) number of changes, all of which have coincided with major life decisions or personal crises I’ve had. I’ve realised that one of my ways of coping with stress is to change my hair. At the beginning of 2019, when I was stuck in a rut about what I wanted to do with my future, I cut myself a fringe 15 minutes before I needed to leave the house. Before my 18th birthday, I trimmed a few inches off my hair as I no longer wanted to be seen as a child. During exam season in Year 13 I cut, then dyed, my hair after two horrendous exams that left me feeling despondent. By changing my hair in these situations, I felt that I was able to move on from a situation and feel like a new person who could tackle whatever I was facing.

I recently decided to dye my hair burgundy, and a couple of days ago I cut my hair to shoulder length. Perhaps it was to signify a new part of my life: the part of my life in which I’m growing up, learning to take myself less seriously, and having FUN! Burgundy reflects how I’m being bolder and braver, and no longer constricting myself to the rules and regulations I was subjected to for years at school. At school, I was regularly in very formal settings where I didn’t think it would be appropriate to have a wacky hair colour, fearing judgement from other people. But I’m now learning to care less about what other people think and express who I really am.

I have (sadly!) been gifted the gene of a babyface, and, even at the age of 19, I am regularly told that I look 14, 15, or (to my absolute horror) 12 years old. I find that when I’ve got longer hair or leave it down people tend to think I’m much younger and that I’m naïve or immature because I look ‘more girly’. It surprises me that the length of a woman’s hair can affect how she is treated by others, whether she is treated as a girl or a woman. In a male-dominated work-world, if I want my voice to be heard and respected, I have to tie up my hair and get the job done. I don’t think that girl’s hairstyle should determine the level of respect she receives. But the world we live in means that, sometimes, she has no choice.

At the end of the day, even though I’ve been through a plethora of hair styles and colours ­–long hair, short hair, fringe, no fringe, brown hair, blonde dip-dye, slightly ginger, black hair, and burgundy hair – I’m still the same girl underneath: no matter how much my hair changes, I remain the same person with the same brain and heart.

Do you agree with my views on hair length and colour? How does stereotypical hair colour tropes influence how you perceive someone? And to what extent does your hair colour play an integral part in your identity?

Union speaker described as denying “autistic trans people – and autistic people as a whole – agency over their lives”

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CW: Transphobia, ableism.

The Oxford Union has sparked controversy after inviting Dr Debra Soh as a speaker, describing her as a “renowned Canadian science columnist, author, political commentator and academic sex researcher… [whose] research indicates that abnormal sexual preferences are results of neurological conditions rather than learned behaviours”.

Debra Soh has described autism as a “mental health condition”, stating there is “definitely a correlation between autism and gender dysphoria” as “‘for some people with autism they fixate on things, go through periods of being really into one thing – gender could be one of those”.

The Oxford SU Disabilities Campaign told Cherwell: “Soh’s comments describing autism as a ‘mental illness’ betrays her lack of understanding of the matters she attempts to speak on, and her suggesting that the existence of autistic trans people is a result of ‘fixations’ attempts to deny autistic trans people – and autistic people as a whole – agency over their lives.”

“The continually documented attempt of anti-trans individuals (including J.K. Rowling) to draw focus towards trans autistic people as incapable of understanding their own identity represents only one part of a wider attack on trans individuals in an effort to block trans people from the respect and healthcare they are entitled to. The attempt to invoke autism within this attack does not do anything to consider autistic voices, merely using autism as a vague talking point to dismiss trans rights, and should be thoroughly rejected not just by trans activists but disabled activists as well.”

In a statement published on their Facebook page, Oxford SU Disabilities Campaign said: “The Oxford Union’s invitation of Debra Soh represents another instance of the Union’s continued willingness to uncritically platform individuals whose harmful views are widely documented.” Alongside their statement, they shared the Oxford SU LGBTQ+ Campaign’s statement, also published to their Facebook page, in which they wrote “her positions are unequivocally transphobic” and cited “the point in inviting her is for the Union to excite controversy”.

Soh has also been accused of “anti-trans” views by the Oxford SU LGBTQ+ Campaign. In interviews, Soh has stated that “most of these kids who feel gender dysphoric, when they reach puberty they will outgrow these feelings and are more likely to grow up to be gay in adulthood.” She further wrote an article in 2017 titled “Why bans on conversion therapy are misguided”. Debra Soh’s book contains a chapter title “Myth #3: There Are More Than Two Genders” as well as appearing on The Joe Rogan Experience categorically saying ‘Gender is not a spectrum’. In September of 2020 she also authored the article “How the Nonbinary Trend Hurts Those with Real Gender Dysphoria”. Her repeated reference to “rapid onset gender dysphoria” and how it “contradicts gender-affirmative care” has been described in an article by two academics as “best explained by transphobia and research study biases, it does not withstand scrutiny”.

In their statement, Oxford SU LGBTQ+ Campaign outlined Debra Soh’s qualifications: “a Canadian neuroscientist who made her reputation studying paraphilias (that is, sexual fetishes and associated behaviours) before leaving academia and taking a hard turn into criticising the idea of gender identity, supposed early transitions in trans youth, and efforts to outlaw conversion therapy. She is not an academic, and when she was, trans health was not her field; she is hardly qualified to comment on these issues and her positions are unequivocally transphobic.”

Oxford SU LGBTQ+ Campaign’s statement went on to say: “we note that this is not even the first time this year we have been compelled to comment on the Union’s practice of inviting anti-trans speakers. That transphobia is viewed by the Oxford Union’s leadership as an acceptable belief to platform, even a reliable source of attention, continues to exemplify a culture at this university that is profoundly anti-trans. This culture will not change until the University and the student body, as well as the Oxford Union, take steps to understand the damage and their decisions to tolerate, tacitly support, or even encourage transphobia causes to trans students, to our studies, and to our lives”.

The SU LGBTQ+ Campaign told Unon members: “It is your money that helps perpetuate this atmosphere. You might consider donating to charities that work to support LGBT people, especially young people, who are most at risk from conversion therapy, such as the support line Outline, youth group Gendered Intelligence, or the UK Lesbian & Gay Immigration Group, which aids LGBT people from all over in the application process for asylum in the UK.”

The Union President, James Price, told Cherwell: “I’m proud of the work of so many people for putting together such a diverse, broad and hopefully-thought-provoking term card that includes speakers across the political spectrum. The Oxford Union champions free speech, alongside robust scrutiny and debate. It is, was, and will be a place that debates important issues, and no one will ever be allowed to speak without being robustly challenged and taken to task for their views. We will always welcome the help and advice of anyone who can help us better do that, and we will always ensure, even in a virtual term, that members will be able to have their questions put to every speaker.”

Cherwell also approached Dr Debra Soh for comment.

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Tuition fees to be temporarily frozen prior to review

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University tuition fees for UK residents will be temporarily frozen before the government comes to a decision about whether to cut them, according to the government’s interim response to the Augar Review of post-18 education.

Tuition fees for UK residents have been capped at £9,250 since 2017. Fees have not risen in line with inflation, leading some universities to complain that they lacked the money to fund some degrees as a result. The Department for Education said: “We intend to freeze the maximum tuition fee cap to deliver better value for students and to keep the cost of higher education under control. This will initially be for one year and further changes to the student finance system will be considered ahead of the next comprehensive spending review.”

The review outlines the government’s plan to make technical education more attractive to school leavers. Only 10% of British adults hold a level 4-5 technical qualification as their highest level of education, compared to 20% in Germany. The government says their expansion of apprenticeships and increasing investment in technical education will help them achieve this.

The review shows that the government is considering implementing the Augar Review’s recommendation that students would have to meet a minimum entry threshold to attend university and be eligible for student finance. This is intended to reduce university drop-out rates.

President of Universities UK, Julia Buckingham, criticised the plan: “Enforcing minimum entry requirements for prospective university students would be a regressive move, preventing students from disadvantaged backgrounds whose prior educational experiences have adversely affected their grades from attending university and ignoring the evidence that many of these students excel at university.”

The Augar Review recommends that minimum entry requirements would be subject to a contextual evaluation of a student’s circumstances. By the review’s calculations, if minimum entry requirements were set at 88 tariff points, 38,000 students from England would not be accepted to university. After applying “a specific version” of the UCAS Multiple Equality Measure to contextualise their applications, the number of ineligible students would fall to 6,000.

Commenting on the report, the National Union of Students expressed concern that “setting a minimum entry requirement to higher education will be a significant barrier to students’ choices and their potential. We must ensure that our funding and admissions system makes higher education accessible to all.”

Bodleian Bangers: Alan Rusbridger

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Starting a new music series where we ask Oxford dons and alumni about their favourite tunes, artists and composers, Matthew Prudham speaks to Lady Margaret Hall Principal and Former Guardian Editor-in-Chief Alan Rusbridger.

MP: So, to start us off, what is the one song you can’t you keep listening to at the moment?

Alan: So I, nearly all the music I listen to is classical. Does that matter?

MP: No, that’s fine! 

Alan: So that the answer is I’m very obsessed with the last 45 minutes of Act I of The Marriage of Figaro. It has an incredible structure where it begins with two people, three people, then four people, then five people, finally, and six people. And it’s each bit within it is contrasted with a bit before, and every tune is astonishing. The drama, the pathos, the weight, the sparkling energy,  the musical invention… if you want 45 minutes of music to die to the last bit of the first act of Mozart’s Marriage of Figaro is as good as any 45 minutes of music.

MP: That’s quite a statement. I’m pretty sure that’ll attract some debate! If you had to choose one album or work to be the only thing you would hear for the rest of your life; something that wouldn’t get too repetitive but that you could enjoy listening to over and over again. What would it be?

Alan: Let’s say Bach’s St. John’s Passion. I myself, like a lot of people, sort of underrate Bach because he’s not romantic – his language was more limited and he was writing with sort of smaller forces. Though it’s more intimate than your Romantic opera, The Passion holds a power and intensity, emotional depths and heights. It’d obviously a huge work, at whatever it is, two and a half hours? It’s about the most profound subjects, it holds incredibly revolutionary harmonies and orchestrations.

I mean, it goes from sort of enormous numbers where you see a composer playing for the first time with a possibility of brass, with incredible Baroque trumpets – but also some of the most precious parts. I went to a performance once in King’s College, Cambridge, sitting very near the Viola de Gamba; and Bach writes for whole sessions of just a Viola de Gamba and voice. The Passion can be very small, almost like chamber music, and it can be enormous as if it was an opera or mass. If the challenge is to find something that that you were trying to endlessly fascinating, that would be it.

MP: Who would you say that are the most in the three most important artists or composers in your in your life, which made the most personal impact? 

Alan: I would say Schubert was one of them. Again, I came quite late to Schubert; I sort of thought he was a poor man’s Beethoven, but actually, he’s incredible – especially his range. I mean, just recently I’ve been playing a lot of his song cycles on the piano; his sonatas, his chamber music, his the symphonic music – it’s just an array of astonishing output: 900 and something pieces!

Also, I’m going to say Benjamin Britten. He’s been a sort of hinge into contemporary music for me, with which sometimes I struggled. And I think Britten at his best was the opera Peter Grimes, which feels to me as so contemporary because it’s about society and outcasts from society. If you think about Trump’s America and the kind of populist mobs that exists in Peter Grimes, you know, it’s a very contemporary opera. I think Britten was an admirable, brave person and a humanist as well as a brilliant composer.

And increasingly, Wagner would be. Again, it’s funny how you develop as a listener. I thought Wagner was such a boring and verbose and I wasn’t interested in the plots, but then flipped. I mean, when you talk about the last 45 minutes of Figaro, listen to the last 45 minutes of Act III of Die Walküre. If you’re not in tears by the end of that…  I’m still not really interested in the plots – all that German folklore and myths leave me a bit cold.

I’ve just bought Alex Ross’s book, Wagnerism, the effect of Wagner on the world since his death, his impact on music. At the time, being called a Wagnerist could be pretty damning abuse; people cared enough about music that, concerning Brahms and Wagner and Verdi, you had to be one camp or the other. Can you imagine that right – saying I’m, I’m a Maxwell Davis-ist or a George Benjamin-ist. It’s not that centralised any more. 

MP: So, for a bit of nostalgia for the normal times where we could have fun and enjoy things. What was the last and the best concert that you’ve attended? 

Alan: The last concert I attended was at the Royal Festival Hall in March last year. So just as the pandemic was all kicking off, it was George Benjamin’s 60th Birthday concert. So, the programme was full of music by him, but also with things like the Janacek’s Sinfonietta – you know with the big trumpets (imitates trumpets)…That was the last concert I went to, sadly…

The best… I went to Austria in 2008 when Alfred Brendel was giving his last ever concert. And I went to the Musikverein which an incredible concert hall in Vienna. Just because, you know, there was a man grew up in Austria during the Second World War, and has been a sort of Titan of music. I just wanted to be there for the last time he ever played in public and it was very moving.

I think he was about 80 and it was great to see somebody go out at the peak of his powers.. I’ve been to concerts with very distinguished old pianists who were sort of a bit past their best, whilst Brendel just decided to go while I’m still at the top of my game. He performed Mozart’s Piano Concerto No. 9 in E-flat and then a solo piano piece at the end, and it was all there. But I think it was a brave thing to go at his time of choosing. 

MP: I’m going to try and test your your knowledge of the the music of the youth; what artists do you think that this year’s freshers are listening to right now? 

Alan: Adele? (Laughs)  

MP: What should they be listening to instead?

Alan: The Beatles?

MP: I mean, the Beatles are fantastic. You can’t knock that.

If you’re talking about music, it’s going to sort of stand the test of time and was revolutionary – surely The Beatles?

MP: Do you have a favourite Beatles record? 

Alan: I think…. the White Album

MP: I completely agree! It’s just the amount of adventure and that found it so many genres of music in one album. When you say “You know, the Beatles – they invented heavy metal. Some people are bemused because they can’t imagine them being the same band.

So, let’s imagine that it’s late at night at the old Guardian offices, and you need to hear something to get yourself through the last checks of an edition. What are you putting on to give you that extra push something that will motivate you?

Alan: Well, I went through a phase when I was at college, during my university years, listening to the Grateful Dead. I think people felt they were sort of caught up with acid and were quite far out. And if you followed them, people would call you a “Deadhead”. So, I was kind of semi-“Deadhead” for a bit.  There’s an album called Wake of the Flood.  Before the pandemic, I took up swimming while listening to music through waterproof earphones. It’s immensely energetic, invigorating, motivating music. So, yeah, that would be a good choice.

MP: Fantastic. And so finally, if you could sum up Oxford in a piece of music, what would you choose?

Alan: Elgar’s First Symphony in A Flat in the sense that I think sometimes people listen to Elgar, and they think it’s very grand and is about Empire in some sense. But actually, if you listen to it, it’s very tender and vulnerable and emotional. And so sometimes I think Oxford can seem very sort of formal and unchanging and unbending; but actually, the people are what makes it special. So, if you look beneath the surface, as well in that Elgar Symphony, you’re into a completely different sound world – but you have to look beneath the surface, and the same is with Oxford. 

MP: That’s a very apt way of describing Oxford. Well, that’s all the questions that I had to ask. Thanks so much for your time! 

Alan: Well, if one person tunes into one of those things and finds out that they like it, then it’s definitely worth it. 

Find the full playlist for the interview on the Cherwell Spotify: @cherwellmusic.

Dear diary: new year, new me?

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Since 2016 I have kept a diary, and over the past five years I have somehow managed to write in it every single day. No breaks, no omissions: just 1825 pages of my random scribblings from the ages of 14-19, peppered with strange anecdotes and long tangents on events of interest to no one but myself.

And since 2016, on the page marked ‘January 1st’, I have written my New Year’s Resolutions, apparently in the desperate hope that by setting them down in pen they might actually come to fruition. But out of the 15 goals I have set for myself over the past five years, I’ve only stuck to one! This leaves me with a staggeringly unsuccessful 6.67% success rate when it comes to New Year’s Resolutions.

Wondering how I had gone so wrong I looked more closely at what I’d resolved to do, and as I did so several common themes emerged:

1.    Attempts at fitness: “do some form of exercise once a week” (2016); “exercise at least once a week” (2017 – unoriginal copy of last year’s resolution); “exercise 3-4 times a week” (2018 – a massive increase on the previous year’s target. Not sure where this sudden unjustified enthusiasm for the gym came from).

2.    Healthy eating: “eat less unhealthy food” (2016 – uselessly vague); “not to eat mindlessly” (2021 – broken mere hours into the New Year when I found out I wouldn’t be allowed back to Oxford until at least the 25th and had to eat 2 bowls of Shreddies in rapid succession just to feel something).

3.    Relationships: “Do something re my crush???” (2018 – questions marks suggest I was already highly sceptical that I would ever do this); “get over my crush” (2019 – a resolution achieved, but only in the year after I set it so it doesn’t count).

Interestingly, the one year for which I made no resolutions at all was 2020. Perhaps deep inside I knew what was to come and that I should not bother – or I simply forgot to write them down. One or the other.

Why do we set these unconvincing and often unachievable targets every year? With the emergence of the #selfcare movement there has been increasing backlash against the idea of ‘New Year, New You’, most notably from celebrity activist Jameela Jamil who stated on Instagram last week that “we deserve to focus on a happier and more mentally stable us” rather than “the stupid fucking diet and detox industry”.

She has a point. Many, myself included, feel pressure to overhaul themselves come January 1st, throwing out their ‘old self’ along with the Christmas tree and the Bounties at the bottom of the Celebrations box. No one better embodies this desperate desire for change than Bridget Jones, who lays out her New Year’s resolutions on the opening pages of Helen Fielding’s genius novel. She asserts, amongst other things, that she will not “smoke/spend more than earn/get upset over men/bitch about anyone behind their backs”, but instead will “stop smoking/be more confident/be more assertive/eat more pulses/form functional relationship with responsible adult” and so on.

25 years on, these declarations remain funny because we are still making ones exactly like them: Bridget’s resolutions, like mine, could fit into the exact same Fitness/Food/Relationships categories listed above. So many of our years begin with such indefinable goals such as “get fitter”, “be happier,” or “be nicer to others” without setting out any realistic way of achieving them. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to improve, as long as it’s for the right reasons, but if you are going to make a resolution it has to be one you can actually stick to or measure. It’s all very well saying that I will eat less mindlessly this year, but what must I do if I want to achieve this? (This is a question with an easy answer I don’t want to accept: stop buying Shreddies.)

In the social media age I see more and more people resolving not to exercise more or eat less, but instead to “be proud of themselves no matter what”, “get help when I need it”, or “learn to say yes/no more”. These are more positive resolutions than Bridget’s list of musts and must nots. But I’m beginning to realise the arbitrariness of it all: why does it have to be ‘New Year, New Me’? Why, if you want to do something, can’t you just decide to start at any point in the year? If you want to take up stamp collecting, or pet more dogs, or stop listening to the same six songs you’ve had in your playlist since you were 14, why wait until January 1st to do it?

The single resolution out of the 15 that I did manage to keep dates back to 2016, where I announced that I would “write in this diary every single day”. I have managed to stick to it for over five years now, just because keeping a diary combines writing and moaning, my two favourite things. If the failure of the majority of my resolutions has taught me anything, it’s that you have to make them with conviction or there’s no point doing it at all. And I swear I really am going to stop mindlessly eating this year – just as soon as I finish this bowl of Shreddies.

Art by Rachel Jung